unspoken words of that stubborn soul…

4* A Little Bit of Us

She couldn’t sleep a wink. She kept on turning and tossing on her bed. The last shooting day has wrapped up. The after party was fun. Fun… until she came back to her room and felt this sudden emptiness.

She was staring at her phone.. wondering.. debating whether to make that call.

The clock at her bedside was ticking. It’s competing with the beating of her heart.

One ten thousand… two ten thousand… three ten thousand

She saw his name on her phone.


She heard him say. She was still looking at it, wondering who made that call. Was it her, or him?

“Shin Hye-ya”

“Oppa?”, she asked, confused.

“Hey…”, she heard the worries in his voice.

“Yah!”, she answered playfully, her soul magically a bit lifted.

Her heart beating… fluttering a bit. She found comfort on that space… a sliver of peace in her heart.

“The girl needs the boy friend, or the boyfriend can come out now from his hiding place?”

“Oppa… boy friend… two words.. i need to talk to him?”, she asked, a bit careful.

“Boy friend it is! How’s the after party?”

“Good. Fun. Fine”

“How’s the flower boy?”

“Yah! Oppa… You are currently the boy friend, remember?”

“Currently the boy friend, yes. But i am currently the boyfriend as well.”

“Will not be the boyfriend tomorrow?”, she asked suddenly.

“You wish. tch!”

“Aniya/You wish?”, they both said at the same time.

Shin Hye smiled, seeing Geun Suk’s reaction when she asked that question.
Geun Suk laid back, smiling, knowing Shin Hye’s face as she said “aniya”.


“Can’t the boy friend tease the girl friend on her new screen partner?”

“In our case…cannot. We both know one of us will be offended later on”

“And that would probably be… me?”


“Ok… So, how’s Krystal?”

“Stop it!”

“Wae? Can i not ask about your female co-workers? Friends do that”

“Not in our case. There will be a blood bath later”

“Oh! And the blood will be mine?”

“Unless you would choose it to be mine”

“Understand… It would be my blood.”

Shin Hye giggled on the line.
Geun Suk smirked, shaking his head.

“We can’t talk like friends”, she said.

“We can’t be friends”, he said.


“Arasseo.. we can’t pretend the pleasantries of friends. So, back to the case… as friends. How do we do this? Hm… How’s the after party?”

“Good. Fun. Fine”, she repeated, smiling.

“How’s LA?”


“How’s Jun Hyung?”


“How are you?”


“How are you?”


“How. are. you? I am the boy friend, remember?”

“Not good.”

“Hmm”, he said, nodding, giving her the cue to continue.

“They still don’t think i can do it. They.. still feel i’m not there yet. They… still see me as that kid… not good enough… playing her way… riding the popularity of others.”, she said slowly, trying to control her sobs.

The guy closed his fist, pinched his nose, as if controlling his anger.

“Oppa… the boy friend… I’m talking to the boy friend… Oppa?”

“Isn’t the boy friend allowed to be offended, hurt…?”

“Can.. can be allowed, but logically hurt.. Like he will say.. They are too unfair. You’re too good for that project. He’ll tell me, I’m the best from that cast. That i am the drama’s secret weapon. That i should just ignore them. Just show them and prove to them that they’re wrong”

“Oh… They are too unfair. Really unfair. You’re too good for that project. You’re definitely the best from that cast. You know what?”

“What?”, she said, smiling.

“You’re ‘The Heir’s’ secret weapon. You should just ignore them. Show them and prove to them that they’re wrong.”

“Show them and prove to them that they’re wrong, Oppa”

“You can definitely turn the table, Park Shin Hye”

“I’m good, Oppa. I’m that good”, she smiled, knowing the criticism that Geun Suk was getting for Pretty Boy.

“Can the boyfriend talk now?”

“Hm.. andwae. I know what he will say.I don’t want to hear it”

“Oh! What would the boyfriend say?”

“Do you want me to call the attention of all those press people and show on their faces how good Park Shin Hye..”

“my girlfriend”, he corrected.

“That self-centered, hm?”, she said, teasingly.

“uh uh”

“and show to their faces how good my girlfriend is? Do you want me to call my eels and bash the other characters of the show?”

“Will i say that?”



“You’re not that temperamental anymore. You’re not that childish..”

“Childish?”, he said, smirking on the other line.

“Then, why….”

“I just want to talk to a friend. I don’t want to add to your burden, Oppa”

“Shin Hye..”

“Let me finish. I don’t want to make you mad. I don’t want to appear too weak. I just want to talk to someone who will listen.. Just listen and, probably give me comfort”

“Don’t i comfort you?”, he asked in a whisper.


“Shin Hye…”

“Whenever i turn to you, Oppa, i feel weak. I’m quite stubborn, but little by little, I’m losing myself when i”m with you. I always feel like letting all these feelings go, and let you soothe me. I don’t feel like I’m having the bone to fight. It’s just like, when I’m with you, i’m simply letting it go”

“Is it bad? Are we…”

“Ani.. aniya. It feels good, Oppa. It feels good that i don’t question why i’m laying them all in front of you.. like i don’t feel burdened that i give you my burden. But, sometimes, i want to handle my battles by myself. That i just want to prove that i can still fight my own war. It’s not about that pride and feeling weak.. like how i view what we have years before. It’s more on stopping at times, and grabbing and taking control of the wheels.”


“Oppa, are you mad?”

“The boy friend, or the boyfriend?”

“Hmm.. both?”

“The boy friend doesn’t have the right to get mad”

“The boyfriend?”

“Let me find the words….”


“The boyfriend is suddenly out of coverage area”


“He’s currently in cloud nine, rejoicing that the girlfriend has finally trusted him… i mean.. admittedly trusting him”


“Shin Hye?”


“Do you know what the boyfriend would want to say to you at this point?”

“Hm?”, she asked, smiling.

“I’m your number one fan…. and..”

“Hm?”, she said, her tears running down her cheeks.



2* A Little Bit of Her

Geun Suk was driving along Han when he suddenly remembered something. He stopped driving that Ferrari, tapped his fingers on the steering wheel while humming that familiar song…

I will promise you
Du nu nen no man dam go sa ra gal ke
I will promise you
Du pa run no lan go sa ra gal ke
A chi me nun to jam dun sun gan ka ji
No ha na man gu ril ke
Sa rang he I mal it ji ma
I love you forever

He looked at the Han, shook his head as he remembered what it was that his head was trying to hum.. was it his head or his heart?

“Aigoo, Go Mi Nam-ssi!”

He squinted his eyes, did that familiar Hwang Tae Kyung pout as he tried to ponder on something.

“I should have really befriended that punk.”, he shook his head as he remembered that episode.

“Lee Min Ho-ssi.. Lee Seung Gi, Yoo Ah In, Kim Soo Hyun, Yoo Seung Ho… tsk tsk tsk. Lee Seung Gi, check. Yoo Seung Ho, check. And now, Lee Min Ho-ssi! What the! Three out of five in one year. Yoon Si Yoon did a retake. Lee Jong Suk and Jung Il Woo joined the bandwagon. Aisssh! What were you thinking Jang Geun Suk when you decided to date that girl?”

Tap. Tap. Tap.

“She acts like a guy… talks like one of your guy friends…plays like your biggest competition in any sport. Heck, she could even beat you in car racing. She’s not even that pretty…. not even that pretty… hm… pretty… yepuda, jinja.. nope… really… jinja.. Aisssh!”

He took his phone and dialed one number.

“Where are you? Meet me at the Han in five.”

Plain and simple. Conversation should be that fast. No script writing, script reading.. planning your lines even before she answer the phone. No need to tell someone you miss her or you can’t wait to see her sooner. No pretense… pretense…

The simple hi, would be followed by hey…the courteous how are you… the overrated i miss you’s. You’re too sleepy to start a conversation, a little too annoyed to check in for you will only be discussing some trivial things, asking have you eaten already.. what did you have for dinner, and then will shift to how’s eommonim? Is Sunni doing fine? The never ending sharing of what i did and did not do.. what she did and hope she didn’t.. then, the classic, Oppa, do you think I’m getting bigger (which is a subtle way of asking whether she’s getting fatter)? You’re fighting your eyes from closing, trying to hide your laughter, when she would suddenly mention that she had coffee with Lee Min Ho-ssi last night and you would abruptly sat up from lying, your back against the headboard of your bed. You’re gritting your teeth, trying your best to calm your nerves, asking nonchalantly how the coffee tasted, and how long was it before she finished the cup, which by the way is the not so obvious way of asking how long the coffee date was.

No pretense. A bit boring. No specific topic. No plan on the flow of conversation. You wished to end it fast… fast… Until she said, good night and wished you sweet dreams and you find yourself hanging on the line hoping it won’t end that soon.

Smiling, Geun Suk drove back to the park, hoping to meet that someone in five.


1* A Little Bit Too Much

“Where are you?”, Kurt asked her while sipping a cup of coffee, his eyes focused on that guy who’s flipping the car magazine a little too rough than normal.

“Malibu Beach…”, she answered nonchalantly, her voice a bit bored.

Kurt looked at that guy again, who smirked a little, a bit too annoyed.

“Kurt Oppa, have you heard from Geun Suk Oppa? He’s not answering my calls”, her voice a bit too calm to the ears.

Kurt’s eyes almost bulged. He mouthed, “punk!”, and then, he shook his head while answering, “i’ll be meeting him in a few”

“Oppa, are you on speaker?”

“a…um… deh… i’m eating something”

“oh.. i thought you’re with someone”

“a… i’m at the park. not a lot of people at this time of the day. No one would hear your rants against your Oppa”

“Hal! I’m not ranting about him. He won’t even give me a chance to nag. He won’t even call me. He won’t even answer my calls. Min Ho Oppa thought i’m a bit of a psycho. I was just staring at my phone, waiting for his message”

“tch”, Geun Suk smirked, the pages of the magazine almost got torn.


Kurt eyed Geun Suk, asking him to behave or he’ll come clean to Shin Hye.

“Oppa, are you there?”

“Shin hye-yah, mianhae. The line is not clear”

“It must be the waves of the ocean, Oppa. Wait, i’ll pick another spot”

“Malibu Beach, ha”, he repeated smiling.

“Hm… the air is quite nice. And the sea seems to sing at night. I wonder how the ocean sounds in Phuket.”, she said, shaking her head as if remembering something.

“Why don’t you ask the guy who’s been going in and out of there?”


Geun Suk’s hands stilled, as he heard the echoes of her heart.

“Shin Hye….?”

“Hm… there are some things which are better left unsaid… better not to ask…”

“Shin Hye?”

“Mianhae, Oppa. Maybe, i just felt tired.. bored.. disappointed. I’m quite hormonal.. ha ha ha”, she faked a laugh, hiding her tears.

Geun Suk looked at the phone, his face blank.

“I wonder how Sri Panwa looks like. I wonder how he feels whenever he goes there. I wonder what he needs to escape to, and what he finds as an escape whenever he’s in there. Aissssh! But, i won’t ask. I won’t dare.”


“I thought…”, Kurt said, his eyes anywhere but on Geun Suk’s.

“Ha ha ha. Don’t tell Oppa. Kurt Oppa, promise me, you won’t tell Oppa. I will sound a bit whiny. It’s either he’ll tease me to death, or he’ll find me a bit too childish. Ha!”


“A.. cham.. Oppa, have you seen the stills? Haha.. i was trying to reach Geun Suk Oppa. I want to tease him about the Maserati. The car is quite fast, but Min Ho Oppa is not quite familiar. I wanted to steal the wheels and drive it myself. ”

“Shin Hye?”

“A.. i sprained my ankle the other day. We were shooting some scenes. I accidentally twisted my ankle….. And the day before that, i was with Min Hyuk. You’ve met him before, right? Hm… what else. I met some stars at the set. I was really overwhelmed Oppa. If you only saw my face when i saw the banners….”

Kurt was listening intently, confused on the sudden shifts of topic… worried on the guy sitting next to him.

Geun Suk was just sitting there, his shoulders tensed. He heard her bits and pieces, but he saw her message loud and clear.

She’s scared. Her fear eating her whole.
She’s fading. She’s sinking…
She’s trying to reach out… waiting for him to save her.

His fierce little Princess.
He almost forgot she’s just a little girl.
He was almost tempted to pull her back and push them away.
But he gave her his words.
He’ll stand at the sideline and let her do her battle.

“Kurt Oppa, they’re already looking for me. Kamsa….”

“Take care, Shin Hye…”, and as Kurt was about to end the call, Geun Suk stopped his hand in mid air…. prolonging their connection.

And as if she sensed it, he saw her smile, and whispered, “I’m doing great, Oppa, right?”

Geun Suk nodded his head, and whispered, “Saranghae”



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