hersideofstory

unspoken words of that stubborn soul…

5* Almost

Geun Suk held her face, memorizing every inch of it, and then that stubborn girl suddenly pulled away and immediately went out of his car. She went down without looking back. She walked the opposite way, without looking at him.

Geun Suk started the engine, drove at the opposite direction, looking at the girl from his rear view mirror.

As Shin Hye heard the revving of his engine, and as the sound of Louis became farther and weaker, she slowed down her pace, closed her eyes and bit her lips.

It’s not his fault. It’s not about her, that girl.. that goddess.
It’s all about her.. her own self… and that twisted mind of hers.

She understands. That, she’s certain.
He loves her. That, no need to argue.
She loves him. No question needs to be asked.

Shin Hye’s tears started to roll down her cheeks. She looked around, trying to find where she is.
She’s lost. No idea where she is or where she’s going.

She dragged her feet to nowhere in particular. She’s not too sure what it is that she wanted, or what it is that she’s looking for.
She’s just getting tired. She’s hurt… confused.

Shin Hye remembered the cluelessness in Geun Suk’s eyes the moment she asked who his girlfriend is. Who wouldn’t be? The guy has been pleading her to come out in the open and announce to the world that it is what their camp is thinking about… and inform those on the other side to stop daydreaming of the other pairings.

Shin Hye smiled, as she wiped her tears. She would at times kid around, asking him whether the announcement is for her or for him. She still remembered how Geun Suk would have that mischievous grin, controlling his laughter. “I just don’t want them to bash you. And i simply want them to stop pairing me with other girls. Can’t they figure it out? Three years.. three years since Minami and here I am, still teasing my Go Mi Nam? Come on! I have a life. I don’t just kid around”

Shin Hye stopped, smiled, half-laughing half crying as she remembered how she sulked, walked out, smirked, telling that guy,”So, it’s not about declaring what we have, Oppa? It’s about saving me from the bashing because they won’t accept that the Prince of Eels will settle with that Go Mi Nam. Tch! And it’s still about you. Waaah! What will people think of Jang Geun Suk, if after all those teasings, that kid.. that Go Mi Nam, still hasn’t budged. Oh?”, Shin Hye acted a bit disoriented, and with a pout on her lips, she added. “Oppa, you’re dating someone else, but you’re teasing Go Mi Nam and that stupid girl is still flirting with you. Pathetic! Jinja. Should I just channel my flirting with someone else? That would both save our faces,Oppa. Geun Suk would no longer be teasing that kid who would not budge and that girl would no longer be flirting with her Oppa who only sees her as her dongsaeng. Ah, cham. I forgot, she’s no longer your dongsaeng now. She’s now your bestfriend. Should i be happy? Was i promoted or demoted, Oppa?”. She was smiling, smirking of her come back, when as she looked back at him, she swallowed, her eyes widened, as she saw his face darkened…his cheeks twisting.

Her tears started to roll again as she remembered him looking at her, he laughing in disbelief, as he continued, “Mian.. I’m quite selfish.. narrow-minded. I’m only thinking of myself. I haven’t really considered you in anything. Honestly.. never”, he said, shaking his head.

Though she knew that she was just kidding at that time, somehow, her chest tightened, hearing those words that he never did actually consider her in anything. She was dumbfounded, not sure what to answer back, when the guy looked at her and continued, “I never really considered you. It’s all about me and my ever conceited self. “

She looked at him blankly, her eyes welling in tears, she’s biting her lips, his words cutting deep in her heart. She was about to walk away, when the guy chuckled and continued, “I really like it when your gullible self would fall on my trap. But it pains me a lot, whenever I say things about us, and I can read confusion in your eyes. At first you would just laugh, playing along… then you would pause, thinking about my words. I know when the battle within you has started, fighting whether to believe or not, and then later on, you will choose to believe… not in me.. but on my words. Whenever i would plot something like this, I would think twice.. partly because of the pain that i would cause you, but mainly because of the terror.. that fear that you still don’t believe in me. It’s always about me, and your level of knowing, surrendering and faith on me”

Shin Hye looked around, trying to find that soul. Her mind was processing a thousand things. She stopped, have a feel of her heart, but was confused when her heart was at ease.

With her hand on her chest, her eyes closed, after a second or two, those things that are in her mind suddenly disappear as her heart spoke with her head. He can find you. He will find you no matter what.

And as if taunting her, she remembered his words that day when they were biking along Han, “If fate won’t believe in US, I’d rather believe in us”.

And with that said, Shin Hye run to nowhere in particular, her lips with a smile, she whispered in the air. Mianhae, Oppa. But, I cannot let you go. I cannot let us go.

As one guy approached the intersection, his lips suddenly curved into a smile as he heard the whisper of the wind.

Not knowing where she was, that girl took her phone, and dialed her Number 1. “Do you think you can find me, Oppa?”

The guy on the other line was just smiling as he listened to her voice.
“Hana. Dul.”

She still hasn’t counted upto three…

An hour or two has passed, as that girl was walking near the pedestrian lane, the light turned red, then, suddenly a car stopped in front of her.

The guy unlocked that door, without lifting his gaze.

The girl went inside without looking at him.

“Did you wait too long?”, he asked as she buckled her seatbelt.

“Did you look too far?”, she answered as he maneuvered the car.

He smiled without looking at her.
He held her hand as he maneuvered that car.

The girl looked at their hands, shook her head then smiled.
“They won’t let us go”

“I know… and i won’t, even if they do”

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5* Almost…. Hidden

December 1, 2012

As Si Yoon ushered her to her room, Shin Hye a bit tipsy after that after-party, she looked at him, bowed her head, then said, “Mianhae, Oppa. It’s quite embarrassing to be at this state. You just saw me a few days back, and here i am, a bit out of control”

Si Yoon rumpled her hair, smiled then said, “Just go in. You need to get some rest”

Shin Hye bit her lips, lifted her bowed head then said, “Arasseo.. Jinja, Oppa. Mianhae…”

Si Yoon just smiled, and opened her room door for her. As she was about to go inside, she heard him calling unto her.

“Shin Hye-ya…”

“Hm?”, she said, looking back at him.

“I like you”, he said, smiling at her.

“Hm?”, she asked with widened eyes.

“I like you. I don’t think i will be able to say that later on. I just want you to know. I like you”

—-

November 21, 2012

During their first script reading, Shin Hye’s phone would keep on vibrating, receiving messages from that guy. She was already a bit irritated, not being able to concentrate on what she’s doing.

On his nth call, Shin Hye excused herself and went out of the conference hall.

“Yeo…”

“One more call… one more ring from this phone, and i’m telling you, Oppa, you will have Jun Oppa answering your call”

“Yah, Park Shin Hye!”

“Try me, Oppa”, she said, his stubbornness really getting to her nerves.

“Yah!”

“Hm?”, she asked, giving him a chance to say what it is that made him dialled those calls.

“I’ll pick you up later”

“Yah!”, she said, a bit rattled.

“Go in now. They might be looking for you”

“Oppa… andwae!”

“Wae? Shin Hye-ya, i will be leaving four days from now. Can i at least fetch you and spend some time together before we faced another round of commitments?”

“Oppa..”

“I won’t be making a scene. Promise”

“Aisssh!!! Why am i feeling nervous, Oppa?”

“Aigoo! This little girl. Don’t you trust your Oppa?”

“With this randomness, i doubt i can”

“Aisssh! Go in now. Love you, Princess”

“Love you, too, Oppa.”

—-

Two hours have passed, and as the director wrapped up their first script reading, Shin Hye dialled his number and whispered, “Oppa, we’re done. Meet me at Hyunduk Oppa’s place”, she was still about to say something, when her heart almost jumped from her chest when she heard a voice calling her..

“Shin Hye-ya, are you in a hurry”

“tch! is that the flower boy?”, Geun Suk asked from the other line.

“Aisssh, Oppa! Changkaman…”, she whispered.

“Hm? Wae-yo, Si Yoon Oppa”

“I’m just wondering whether we could grab a cup of coffee and discuss some things in the script?”

“The guy is making a move. Should i make known of my presence”, the guy smirked at the other line.

“Aisssh! Mianhae, Oppa…”

“Mianhae?”

Beep.. beep.. beep..

Did she just hang up on me?

Shin Hye bit her lips, knowing exactly that she would be punished later on. She was looking at her phone, apologizing to what she has just done.

“Oppa, hm… i have already made some arrangement for today. Mianhae”

“Aigoo! Enrique has already been rejected on his first attempt”

“Yah, Oppa!”, she said, with a pout.

Si Yoon, just looked at her smiling. “Arasseo. Arasseo. Are you going downstairs? Jun Hyung might be waiting for you”

“Hm…”, Shin Hye didn’t know how to answer.

“Wae? I won’t be sending you home, Go Dok Mi. I will just be walking with you to the lobby?”

“Arasseo, Oppa. Mianhae”, Shin Hye said, smiling at him.

Ten minutes later, they were already at the lobby, waiting for her car. They were smiling, laughing at nothing in particular, when the door of the lobby opened, and there she saw the guy in sunnies and cap, his face hidden, but she’s definitely sure who the guy is.

“Jinja”, Shin Hye whispered, her eyes squinted.

The guy walked near them, with a grin on his face.

“Aisssh!”, she said, her forehead wrinkled, as if telling that guy to back off.

Geun Suk, loving the redness of her cheeks, and the confusion in her eyes, hasten his pace and stopped near the two.

“Go Mi Nam”, he said as he stood there in front of her.

Shin Hye shook her head, averted her eyes.

“GO MI NAM?”

“Jang Geun Suk, Sunbae?”, Si Yoon stood up as he recognized that face.

Geun Suk bowed at him, smiled then looked at that girl who’s trying really hard to disappear in thin air.

“Shin Hye-ya, didn’t you recognize Geun Suk sunbae?”

“O.. a.. Geun Suk Oppa”, she said, standing, bowing her head.

“tch! I parked the car outside. I’ve been waiting for an hour now but you are not answering my call”

Shin Hye’s eyes widened as she heard his words. And before, she could say her piece, Si Yoon’s face were moving from her and Geun Suk’s direction, probably trying to rationalize everything that he is hearing.

“You… and you….”

And before that girl could say a word, Geun Suk winked at her then looked at Si Yoon, “Ani.. ani… it’s not what you’re thinking. We’ll only eat outside”

Aisssh! Who would believe you, Oppa. You don’t have any business here, and here you are, driving to this side of Seoul, picking me up to grab something to eat? Jinja.. believable!

Probably knowing what is running in that girl’s head, Geun Suk smirked then added, “Hong Ki and Yong are already waiting for us. Cafe Analog?”

Shin Hye was able to breathe out the moment she heard the name of their two other friends.

Jinja! Did he plan all of these, and had those two as an accomplice?

Shin Hye shook her head, smiled at Geun Suk, then looked at Si Yoon, “Si Yoon Oppa, i think we need to leave. Geun Suk Oppa,i guess, would have some stories to tell me later on”, she smiled and bowed her head.

As she turned around, she almost had a heart attack when she heard what Geun Suk said next, “Do you have somewhere to go after this one? If you’re not busy, maybe we can grab some coffee and have a small chat?”

Shin Hye immediately looked back, throwing that guy some dagger look. Geun Suk knew she was looking at him, but he preferred not to meet her gaze. Shin Hye stood there, hoping that Si Yoon would not agree.

Tch! The stars might not be on her side for this day. For, as she was about to start a prayer, she heard that guy smiled and said, “I will just get my car. I will follow you there”, then he looked at Shin Hye, nodding his head.

Geun Suk followed his gaze and smiled upon seeing that smile.

Shin Hye just bowed her head and immediately went outside of the building.

Geun Suk followed closely behind her, his hands in his pocket, waiting for that girl to explode.

As she sat down, buckling her seatbelt, Geun Suk prepared his self for that impending explosion.

After five, ten minutes, still with no words coming from the passenger’s seat, Geun Suk looked at that girl, then asked, “Are you not going to say something?”

“Do i have to say something, Oppa? tch! I think you already know what it will be all about, so why don’t you just save me of the interrogation and give me the answers that i want to hear”, she said, her words laced with sarcasm.

“I just want to eat with you”, he said, smiling.

Shin Hye threw him a dagger look. “and with him”, he swallowed, continuing his sentence.

The girl squinted her eyes, asking him to continue. “Yah!” he said, a bit irritated for the silent treatment and this monologue.

Shin Hye just raised her eyebrows, challenging him.

Knowing that he’s at fault, Geun Suk continued, without looking at her. “I just want to know him more”

“Wae?”, she asked, irritated of this set up.

“Do i still need to spell that out?”

“Oppa, here we go again.”

“Shin Hye-ya…”

“Don’t you trust me, Oppa?”

Geun Suk didn’t say a word. He remained silent, his eyes focused on the road.

“Don’t you trust me?”, she asked again.

“You clearly know it’s not like that”, he answered without looking at her.

Shin Hye closed her eyes, trying to understand his fear.

“I’m not going anywhere, Oppa”, she whispered,looking at nothing in particular.

She saw him smiled, and then in an instant, he grabbed her hand, and kissed it without looking at her. “Mian….”

Shin Hye smiled as well, and held his hand still.

—–

As they reached the cafe, Hong Ki and Yong Hwa already seated at their reserved corner; Yong Hwa shaking his head as he saw her shy smile, Hong Ki smiling as he saw their hands, clasped together.

“I thought i will be seeing bruises and blood stains once you went down of his car”,Hong Ki said, teasing them.

“tch! Do you really think i will even lay a finger on this girl?”, Geun Suk said, half hugging that girl.

“Tch! It’s not her, Hyung. You wish!”

“Ha ha ha” Shin Hye laughed on Geun Suk’s chest, when as she was about to hug him back, Hong Ki looked at their back and said, “Yoon-a, what are you doing here?”

Shin Hye’s eyes widened, and with dagger look, pushed that guy and squinted her eyes.

“Yoon… Yoon-a.. Yoon Si Yoon…”, Geun Suk clarified, pulling her closer.

Shin Hye blushed, pouted at her childishness, and as she was about to hug him tighter, she realized what she has just heard, she automatically looked at their proximity, her eyes widened,and pushed that guy away from her.

Hong Ki and Yong Hwa laughed in unison as they saw the nervousness in that kid’s eyes.

“Cute.. Jinja cute”, Yong Hwa said, laughing.

“Yah! Go Mi Nam, until how long do you think you can hide this one?”

“Aissh! Jinja!”, she said, hitting Hong Ki in his arm.

They were already seated on that corner, Geun Suk and Shin Hye on one side, Hong Ki and Yong Hwa on the other, Geun Suk’s hand on hers, his head leaned on her shoulder.

“Yah! Hyung, don’t you get tired of seeing each other?”

“Lee Hong Ki, i don’t even have time to spend with this girl. Do you really think i would get tired of seeing her?”

“Aisssh! I mean, Hyung, people like us, are not expected to see each other whenever we want. I sometimes wonder how you still manage to spend this time. We’re simply not like that.. That’s a given..”

They were talking at each other, bickering at one thing or another, when the door of the cafe open, Shin Hye’s eyes automatically reached the door,and when he identified that guy, she pulled her shoulder away from that guy, his head hitting the table.

“Mian”,she whispered.

“He’s here”, Yong Hwa said, smiling at those two.

As Si Yoon approached their table, Shin Hye held Hong Ki’s hand and pulled him to seat beside her, making Si Yoon seated beside Yong Hwa.

When Si Yoon reached their table, Shin Hye automatically stand up, smiled and started introducing the guys.

She was about to start with Yong Hwa, when Yong offered his hand and said, “Yong Hwa. Jung Yong Hwa. I believe we work in one advertisement before”, he said, smiling at Shin Hye.

“Oh…”, Shin Hye said, remembering that CF. “A… Si Yoon Oppa, this is Hong Ki”

Hong Ki stood up as well, offered his hand, and said, “I believe we were introduced as best friends in one tv show before”, he said, shaking his head, remembering that incident.

“Jinja?” Shin Hye said, a bit embarrassed.

“Eh, are you not going to introduce our leader?”, Hong Ki asked, pointing at Geun Suk, who’s head is now resting on the table,sulking.

“Ah.. cham.. Si Yoon, you already met Geun Suk Oppa, right?”

Geun Suk stood up, smiled at Si Yoon and offered his hand. “Geun Suk. Jang Geun Suk”

Shin Hye looked at Geun Suk, trying to read him. She felt guilty of her act, she bit her lips, bowing her head. Geun Suk held her hand under the table, squeezing it, assuring her that everything is ok.

Shin Hye smiled, giving their hands a squeeze as well.

And then as if it is a rule, as they both understand that they do understand each other, Geun Suk withdrew his hand and placed it on the table.

All along the talk, the guys were talking about almost anything, forgetting that they’ve just officially met as a group just a few minutes ago.

Shin Hye’s eyes were following each one of them as they give their view on something, feeling at ease that nothing is outside ordinary.

—–

November 30, 2o12
HongKong, MAMA

Shin Hye was smiling all along the red carpet walk upto their stage appearance, presenting an award to EXO.

Before the after party, as Si Yoon fetched her from her room, before they went down the hotel, when he noticed that she didn’t bring anything with her, Si Yoon held her arm, stopping her, then asked, “You’re not bringing anything?”

Shin Hye looked at her,looked at herself, then said, “Myself?”

“Funny. Powder?”

“Aniyo..”

“Cellphone?”

“Hm..”, she paused for a while, pouted her lips then said, “might not be needed”

“Eh? Are you not expecting any call?”

“Eh?”

“I mean, what if someone calls you”

“Then, they’ll know that i am not available to answer the call”

“Shin Hye-ssi..”

“Oppa, we won’t be staying there for long, right?”

“Even so… Give me your phone, I’ll be holding it”

“Arasseo.. arasseo…”

At the after party, Shin Hye was offered some drinks. She has downed some cocktail glasses, a bit tipsy at the middle of the happenings, when as Big Bang made their way on the stage, Shin Hye could only remember her dancing with Hye Sul and Cha Ye Ryun.

Great! Speaking of hiding from Oppa!

As she heard the beat of the song, Shin Hye’s body flow with the rhythm, dancing with whatever beat is thrown at her. At times she was puzzled, Hye Sul dancing at the other end, while Ye Ryun was pulling her on the other. Si Yoon was moving with the rhythm, not really dancing, but was standing near her.

When she saw the crowd beginning to become a bit wild, while standing with Ye Ryun, she whispered to Si Yoon that she needed to go back to the bar and return her glass. Gentleman that he is, Si Yoon took the glass, but did not leave her on the dancefloor, and ushered her oustide of the crowd. Shin Hye followed without asking anything, but something really was a bit odd.

When they returned to the floor, Ye Ryun held her still, while Si Yoon was standing at her side.

As Dae Sung, probably already drunk, went near their space, she didn’t know why, might be the effect of alcohol… or the feeling of freedom… she shook her body and glide to the beat.

Then, she saw one guy who keep on coming back to their space, pulling Dae Sung away. She was smiling, her mind still working, shaking her head, speculating that the other guys knew Dae Sung was drunk and that they don’t want him to do something stupid; when as she turned her head, she saw those eyes fixed on her, as if saying, Gather your act together, Shin Hye-ya, if you don’t want that guy who just arrived in Seoul from Haneda, to book a flight to Hongkong.

Shin Hye was looking at him, and then when it dawned to her, she recognized the face, “Mithra. Jin Mithra. Mithra Oppa… Chocoballs. I’m dead!”

She was about to stop dancing, when as she looked to her right, she saw Dae Sung looking at her, and in an instant,though she was at the sideline, she didn’t know how it happened, but as Dae Sung moved a step aside, she was instantly at the center, dancing her heart out, forgetting the message that she read from Mithra’s eyes.

Twenty… thirty seconds before the song ends, as she was dancing, almost getting close to Dae Sung, she felt someone passing in between them, then PSY suddenly appeared on the stage.

She looked at that guy who just passed by, and was not surprised when she saw Mithra looking back at her.

When PSY was called and the famous GANGNAM Style was played, Shin Hye found herself surrounded by girls again, Ye Ryun and Hye Sul on her sides.

Two minutes after, as Dae Sung came closer to their space again, Si Yoon stood closer to her.
Ten seconds after, Si Yoon checked his phone and sent a message.
Twenty seconds, another message came in, and as the guys were shouting that cuss word, and as Dae Sung was passing by in front of her, Si Yoon, stood closer to her and whispered something.

“A message was sent to Seoul”

“Hm?”

“Someone is going to be dead later”

Confused of his words, Shin Hye looked at him and hit him on the shoulder.

—–

“I like you”, he said, smiling at her.

“Hm?”, she asked with widened eyes.

Then remembering that day they had coffee together…
How he spoke and intently listening at them, while knowing exactly when she will need to take her sugar or, hand her a tissue…
How he gave his opinion, too mature of his age, and laughed crazily at her childish antics.
How that guy would know when to stand before she even excuse herself to go to the ladies…
Though he didn’t escort her to where she’s going nor held her hand,Si Yoon noticed how silent he became and how his eyes flew to that corner where she went, and how his ideas came back the moment he saw her walking towards them..

She might be too careful, but Si Yoon saw how Shin Hye flinched the moment that guy would excuse himself to have a hit on his cigarette..
How sulky she was that instant he came back, and how apologetic his eyes were..
Shin Hye knew exactly what to place on his plate the moment those slices of sweets were placed on their table.

They might not notice it…
It might look too normal to them..
They might try to act too distant from each other…
but the warmth in their eyes, the spark of their smiles…
the feel of watching an unwritten script unfolding before you….
that familiarity….gave them all the way..

“I like you. I don’t think i will be able to say that later on. I just want you to know. I like you”

He looked at that girl, probably confused.. probably a bit drunk..

And then remembering those calls…
Ani… it’s not only Geun Suk who keeps on calling him..

At one point, her phone would vibrate… then after a series of missed calls from Hong Star, the same number would dial his, asking if that girl is ok.

A few seconds after, another series of missed calls… Bolmae Jung, and then a minute after, his phone would ring, pleading him to bring that girl back to her room.

And then, he might have just imagined it, but after Mithra talked to someone over the phone, that girl’s phone won’t stop ringing..

My Number 1..
Ani.. he didn’t know who he is, until that same number, appeared on his phone..

“Si Yoon-ssi?”

“Geun Suk- Sunbae”

“Can you drag that girl outside of the venue, before i could call everyone in there to stop the party, just so that girl would simply retreat back to her room?”

Si Yoon, smiled, remembering that call.

And before Shin Hye could go inside, he called her name again, handed her phone, then said, “Your number 1 has been waiting for your call. I guess you’re dead”, then he bowed his head, smiled, and walked away.

Five feet away from her, he stopped then he said, without looking back, “So, the anecdotes regarding Chocoball is true.. Should i wait for an invitation, then?”, he said, turning around, winking at her.

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4* Missed… Almost

“Eodisseo?” Geun Suk called her phone the moment he freed himself from some commitments. He was dying to see her, after all the side activities he had these past few days. The girl has been busy as well. He might be free at times but that doesn’t mean he can barge in any time he wants. The girl has her life. Her activities were quite full, juggling studies, variety shows, dramas, red carpets, advertisements, her family and him all at once. He sometimes feel quite guilty; Shin Hye cancelling anything she has the moment he gave her a call, telling her he wanted to see her.

It’s been years, but it’s always been like that. He is always her priority. He’s too busy to make her his and she’s not complaining. Even if there is any pre-agreed meet ups with her friends, the moment he had that call, she will drop anything, and will make time with him no matter what.

He was smiling at the other line, ready to drive towards her location, knowing she is smiling by now, happy to spend some time with him as well. He was already drawing some plans when that girl gave him an answer he didn’t even imagine possible.

“I’m quite busy, Oppa.”, was Shin Hye’s blunt answer.

Geun Suk paused for a while, waiting for a punchline. And when he did not say a word after five seconds or ten, he heard her say, “Oppa, I’m hanging up? I need to do something”

Lost for words, Geun Suk rattled the moment he heard her next words. Afraid that he would be hearing that busy tone if he would not say any word, he managed to called for her name “Shin Hye-ya…”

“Hm?”, was her next word.

“Is there a problem?”, he asked worriedly.

“I need to hang up. If there is anything important, just give me a call”

“Is this not important?”, he asked, not sure where he get those words.

“Oppa, I’m busy. I don’t have time to play with you. If there is anything urgent, just give me a call. I’m not always free, just like how you expect me to be”, she managed to say in one breath. Her words were too précised, but her tone was too controlled. It’s like she’s about to explode, but still restraining herself not to.

“Park Shin Hye!”, he said, a bit irritated, confused where this thing is heading to.

“Call me if there is anything urgent. I don’t think we have something to talk about at this point”, then, beep beep beep.

Geun Suk looked at his phone, dumbfounded. What was that?

This was the first time that he received such answer from her. There might be some misunderstanding, but never did he feel taken for granted before. It’s as if she’s leading a different life, and he’s not included in there. It’s as if, she’s drawing another plan, and he’s afraid he’s not in it.

Geun Suk felt weak the moment it hits him. Is she giving up on me?

Two hours after that call, he tried to get her again. An hour after that, and then an hour after again, still he could not hear anything except for her voicemail box which keep on telling him that the girl is busy and she doesn’t have any time for him.

Geun Suk is getting scared by the minute. Something is not right. He might be too busy not to notice it, but in all honesty, he couldn’t remember anything that he did against that girl. His life has been revolving in Japan, in Seoul, Berlin…. Too many places, too many things to do, that he could not keep track of all the happenings. He might be in more than two places at once, but he’s certain of one thing, and only one thing. Never did he forget about that girl and never did it skip his mind that he better not do anything which will hurt her. Every inch of his body knows exactly how he loves her, and the moment he hurt her, he knows it will hurt him much double the pain that he would cause her.

If the girl would not answer his call, he better find a way to find her. He’s been trying to reach Jun Hyung and the other staffs as well, but something seems really odd. All of them are not answering his call, nor replying to any of his messages. He was getting crazy, driving along the stretch of Seoul, sanity has left him alone, looking at every corners of this side of the globe, hoping to find that soul.

When slowly darkness has enveloped that side of Seoul, and still, he could not reach that girl, he decided to take refuge to his second home… her home.

—–
“Jangmonim, do you know what time Shin Hye will be coming home tonight?”, he asked the elder, the moment he settled himself at the living room, Bongji and Nori rubbing their furs at his feet.

“Why don’t you call him Geun Suk-a”, her Mother answered, smiling at him.

“Jangmonim, i….. I just want to surprise her”, he answered, knowing that it would not be a good idea to involve her in this misunderstanding.

Mrs Park paused for a while, then after a second or two, looked at him, then said, “is there a problem, Geun Suk-a?”

Geun Suk looked at the elder, smiled weakly and then said, “I just want to talk to her. I don’t know what’s happening, Eomma. I think I need to talk to her”

“Alice is not answering your call?”

“I think she’s quite busy”

The elder looked at him once more, and then took her phone, dialling one number.

“What time are you coming home?… Alice…. Alice, is there a problem? Arasseo… arasseo”

The moment she hangs up, Geun Suk stood up, bowed his head then smiled, “She knows I’m here, right, Jangmonim? I better go home. I guess she’s been driving around for hours, but would not come home because she knows I’m still here.”

“Geun Suk…”

“Can you tell her, I just needed to talk to her… I really don’t know what’s happening”

Then, Geun Suk bid his goodbye and proceeded to his car.

—-
An hour or two after, her car arrived, and as she was making her way down her car, she heard his voice.

“How’s the filming?”

He saw her flinched upon hearing his words. He’s been standing at that side, his presence hidden by the bushes.

“I’m tired, Oppa”, she answered, without looking at him, then with a slouch shoulder, she dragged herself away from him.

“I’ve been waiting for you for long. Can you at least spare me that joy of seeing your face?”

“Did I ask you to wait for me?’, she said, her voice a bit loud; still she’s not looking back.

“Shin Hye, is there a problem?”, he asked, his voice soft.

“Mianhae… Oppa, I’m just tired”, she answered, still not looking at him.

“Arasseo.. just go in first. Mianhae…”, Geun Suk smiled weakly, looking at her back.

Shin Hye hesitated at first, but slowly, she turned around, and slowly, she lifted her face, looking at him.

Geun Suk smiled upon seeing her face. “Go in now. Have enough rest, Princess. I love you”, he said, quite hesitant on whether to walk near her, hug her or just stand there still.

Shin Hye just tilted her face, bit her lower lip, as if restraining herself not to say more. She heaved a sigh, closed her eyes, then smiled bitterly at him. She did not dare say a word. She did not dare close their distance.

Seeing that look, those eyes, Geun Suk’s chest did a drumroll. What is happening?

And before that girl could go inside, he ran towards her, and hugged her from the back. Tears started to roll down his cheeks, as he held her still, afraid of what, he did not know.

Shin Hye did not move an inch. She stood there still, waiting for what, she’s not sure.

And before any of them could figure out what was happening, Geun Suk whispered in her ears, “I don’t know what’s happening, but I’m getting scared. I don’t know if I want to ask you, but you do know that something’s not right, right? Shin Hye, mianhae… mianhae… I might have done something wrong again…. Mianhae… your Oppa was quite stupid. I know I did something wrong, but really I cannot figure it out. I’m getting insane here, squeezing my head for something I did or did not do. But I cannot understand. Help me, please. Don’t do this.”

Shin Hye’s tears were having a race on her cheeks, and then slowly, she freed herself from him, then said in a scary-calm voice, “I want to go in. I’m really tired, Oppa. Can we talk tomorrow?”, she said, her head hanging low.

Upon hearing those words, Geun Suk closed his eyes, afraid to hear anything more. Slowly, he let go of her, but his face confused, scared.

He chuckled a bit, then smiled and said, “I’ll see you tomorrow, then”

Shin Hye stopped for a while, while Geun Suk was just standing there, looking at her. And then, as if taunting him, when he thought the girl would turn around and run to him, hugging him, he felt numb as he saw her walking away, their distance becoming bigger.

—-
The following morning, Geun Suk woke up earlier than usual, hoping to wake up from the nightmare the day before. He has dark circles underneath his eyes, but smile is still plastered on his face. The girl might have just been tired.

He sent her one message.

“Good morning, Princess”

One minute, thirty minutes… no reply.

Geun Suk was having a staring content with his phone, waiting for an answer.

“Care for some Americano”

Thirty minutes. One hour. No reply.

This is not good. Definitely not good.

“Can I see you today?”

“Café Analog. Will be done by 11”

Geun Suk faked a smile upon seeing that reply.

He immediately readied his self then flew to that side.

The moment he parked the car, he still hasn’t called her, but the girl went out, not a little more than two minutes after.

Shin Hye slowly walked towards the car, with Americano on one hand, she opened the car, smiling, waving at the persons inside the café.

“I didn’t know you have company today”, he asked, playing the part of the jealous boyfriend.

“Oh… did I forget to tell you?”, she said, not sure whether she’s intentionally mocking him.

Geun Suk swallowed, closed his eyes, trying to control his emotions.
“I might have forgotten”, he smiled at her, then took the Americano from her.

“That’s mine”, she instinctively said, her voice fierce, which was betrayed by the fear in her eyes.

Geun Suk looked at her, trying to read her. Shin Hye averted her eyes, trying really hard not to break in front of that guy.

After 5, 10 minutes of silence, her phone rang. Without looking at the guy at the driver’s seat, Shin Hye answered the call, her voice perky as ever.

“Seung ri-a… Ani…Busy.. me? No, I’m not… 3.00? ok.. I’ll meet you there… take care.. annyeong”

Then she hanged up, a smile on her lips.

Geun Suk waited for 15 minutes or twenty, pleading that girl to at least inform her of what he just heard.

Then, when he felt that the girl would not really budge, he held the steering wheel tightly, trying very hard not to get angry.

“Are you really trying to piss me off? Because if you are, you can stop now. You definitely know how to play with me”

The girl looked at him, then he heard her smirked. “tch! I don’t have time to play with you”

Geun Suk automatically hits the break, then losing all sanity in him, he looked at that girl, his eyes with daggers. “What do you think you’re doing?”

“Drinking Americano?”, she said, not batting her eyes.

“Park Shin Hye!”

“Wae? You tell me what you want to know, and I’ll answer every single of it”

Geuk Suk closed his eyes, heaved a sigh. “what was that call?”

“Seung Ri? He invited me for a short catching ups. He said he knows of a certain resto at downtown Seoul, so might as well try the food there”

“And you simply say yes?”

“Is there something wrong with that?”

“You tell me”

“YOU tell me”

Geun Suk looked at her, reading her, pleading her to spare him some time to understand what’s happening.

Shin Hye simply looked at him, and then, when still he could not figure out what, the girl smiled, then averted her eyes. She was looking outside the window of his car, then after a second or two, said, “For as long as I could remember, I’ve been following unwritten rules, respecting the us in this relationship.” Shin Hye closed her eyes. Geun Suk waited, trying to make any sense out of those words that she’s saying. “I’m always playing the role of that good girlfriend, trying to understand everything. Oppa, I’m getting tired of it. Can I be that bitchy girlfriend who would throw tantrums anytime she wants?”, she asked, looking at him.

Geun Suk, still puzzled, has that confused smile on his lips. That guy grinned and then answered, “No matter how hard you try, you know you cannot be that person you’re planning to be. You can act the role, but you know that’s not you”

“What if I can?”

Geun Suk smirked, shaking his head.

Shin Hye looked at him, and with poker face, she said, “I want out”

Geun Suk upon hearing what she just said, looked at her with widened eyes. “mworago?”

“I want out”, she repeated, without batting her eyes.

“That’s bitchy”, he said, looking away.

“I am”

Geun Suk looked back at her, opened his mouth, and then without any word, looked at that girl again.

Shin Hye just smiled and then looked away. After a second or two, without looking at him, she continued, “You can date her now. You both can come out in the open. Ah, cham, me being bitchy and me wanting out in here has nothing to do with it. No one knew anyway”

“Park Shin Hye!”

“Wae? I told you I’m good with it. At least it’s not that embarrassing. It’s her”

“Her? Who? I have never went out with anyone”

“Tch! Agree. You never went out with anyone… anyone”, she smirked, still her emotions cannot be figured out.

“You do know that I hate this game”

“and you clearly know that I am not playing”

“Damn, Shin Hye!”

Shin Hye just smiled at him. “Are you done? I still have to go somewhere”

Geun Suk closed his eyes, trying to calm his nerves. “Princess, please….”

“I hate it when you cannot figure out what I’m trying to say. It seems like I’m accusing you of something you really did not do”, she said in a mocking tone.

Geun Suk, just sat there, waiting for her.

The girl smiled, then said, “Cola Mercato. Private Room. Girl Group. Does any of it ring a bell?”

Geun Suk looked at her, with wrinkled forehead.

“Aisssh! Im Yoon Ah? Does it sound familiar?”

Geun Suk looked at her, and then after a second or two, grinned, and then laughed uncontrollably, “Are you jealous?”

“I was. Pathetic, right? Yeah, I was.” She said, laughing.

“Yoon Ah and I are…”

“I don’t care. I don’t want to know,” she answered, covering her ears.

“You’re making me laugh”

“And you always make me cry”, she answered, on the verge of crying, but she held it still.

Geun Suk looked at her, his face ran out of color. “It was during Love Rain. I brought her there”, he stated nervously, somehow having an idea where this thing is going.

“I’m not asking anything”

“We went there, remember? We went there a thousand of times. You even helped out in the kitchen. “

“I guess I went there. But there was never a “we”, was there?”

“Park Shin Hye…”

“I look too delusional, Oppa. I look too cheap. I look like that little girl who had this huge crush on you, following your every move”

“Shin Hye….”

“Who is Geun Suk’s girl?”

“You clearly know who she is”

“Do i? I am Geun Suk’s girl. Do you think someone would believe it when I say it? I don’t have a witness, Oppa. Ah cham, I forgot. I have me. I know I am your girlfriend”

“You still have me”

“Can you tell them?”

Geun Suk looked at her, really getting lost at this conversation. “I thought…”

“You thought, but it’s not always like that”

“You said…”

“But it doesn’t always mean that I mean what I said”

Geun Suk looked at her, then after a second or two, took his handphone and dialled a number,”Keunsama, call for a press conference. I need to announce something”

Shin Hye’s eyes widened, then before Geun SUk could finish his words, she grabbed his phone and threw it at the backseat of the car, “Michin?”

“I am… I am getting crazy of this conversation, Shin Hye. What do you want me to do?”

“I don’t know… I don’t know…I want to get mad, but I feel too weak to do it.

Silence….

“How long have you known it?”

“Known what?”, he asked, her words really getting to his nerves.

“That you love her”,she asked too casually, that it pained him.

“Do you really think…”

“What I am thinking doesn’t have any bearing on this”

“yes, it does. It means a lot to me. Do you really think I would do that? Do you really think I could do that?”

“I’m not blaming you. It happens. It does. You fall in love and you fall out of love.”

“Don’t give me that bull”

Silence….

“If things are meant to happen, it will happen no matter how hard you try to avoid it, right?

“Shin Hye….”

“Don’t make this too difficult, Oppa. I’m tired. I’m too tired of this. I thought I can handle it. I was wrong.”

Geun Suk closed his eyes, not wanting to see any of this.

Not a single tear has drop from her eyes. She’s meeting his gaze, without batting her eyes. She’s too calm, too calm that it scares him. It’s as if she has already decided, and there’s nothing he can say to make her change her mind.

Is this it? Just like that?

It never did occur to him that stories like theirs do come to an end.

Is it really the end? What did just happen?

Geun Suk was looking at nothing in particular. He could not process a thing.

Just because of that, she wanted out.

That guy would want to scream, to curse that girl in front of her, who by now, was just looking blankly outside of her window, her face calm. She seemed not to have a clue of the havoc that she sets him in.

Just because of that….

“Bitchy, right? Mianhae… It’s not that I can’t… I just don’t want to understand it anymore. Let’s stop it here. I know we’re both tired.”

Geun Suk looked at her.

He knows it’s not about the interview. It’s not about that most famous girl group member. It’s not that she’s doubting.

She’s in pain. She’s hurting. And just like before, there is nothing that he can do to ease her pain.

He and his fame.
She and her pride.
He and those girls.
She and those names.

“The moment I go down of this car, we’ll try to find our separate ways… we’ll see later… we’ll see how long it will take us to find each other again; that is, given that we will be seeing each other later”

Then, Shin Hye leaned at him, then gave her one quick kiss on the lips. “You do know that I love you, right?”

Geun Suk just looked at her, bit his lips then pulled her to a tight embrace.

After a few seconds, Shin Hye pulled away, smiled and said, “See you”

Geun Suk held her face, memorizing every inch of it, and then that stubborn girl suddenly pulled away and immediately went out of his car. She went down without looking back. She walked the opposite way, without looking at him.

Geun Suk started the engine, drove at the opposite direction, looking at the girl from his rear view mirror.

An hour or two has passed, as that girl was walking near the pedestrian lane, the light turned red, then, suddenly a car stopped in front of her.

The guy unlocked that door, without lifting his gaze.

The girl went inside without looking at him.

“Did you wait too long?”, he asked as she buckled her seatbelt.

“Did you look too far?”, she answered as he maneuvered the car.

He smiled without looking at her.
He held her hand as he maneuvered that car.

The girl looked at their hands, shook her head then smiled.
“They won’t let us go”

“I know… and i won’t, even if they do”

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3* Missing Piece

As she was taking a sip from her cup of Americano, Shin Hye squinted her eyes as she looked at that guy whose head was resting on the table, his eyes fixed on her.

“Wae?”, Geun Suk asked, smiling at her.

“Why are you smiling?”

Geun Suk just grinned, did some stretching and took his Americano as well. As he sat there properly, his hood went down, startling Shin Hye, who immediately stood, pulled him, arranging his cover.

The guy just smiled, shaking his head.

Shin Hye just pouted and took her notes, studying for her exam.
After five minutes or ten, she looked back at that guy, who’s busy playing with his phone.

“Oppa…”

“Hm?”

“Are you not busy?”, she asked, her eyes not lifting from her notes.

“Hm?”, Geun Suk asked, wanting to hear what it is really that she’s wanting to hear.

“What are you doing here? Are you not supposed to do some planning for the remaining Cri Shows, or any endorsement project?”, she said, putting down her notes, looking at him.

“Am I not allowed to spend some time with my girlfriend?”, he asked back, his forehead wrinkled.

“Oppa!”, she answered, objecting on whatever it is that is playing in that guys’ head.

“Don’t mind me. Just continue with what you’re doing”, he said, looking around.

“Oppa, if you really don’t have anything to do today, why don’t you just go back home and sleep a wink. After this week, there will be plenty of commitments again. It would be better if you could at least recharge while having this break”.

“Is this not part off my commitments? This one is the priority”, he said, smiling.

“Oppa, don’t take me as a responsibility. I’m not a kid who would throw a tantrums if her boyfriend would not show his face. And we haven’t just dated. I understand this one”

“Tch!”, Geun Suk smirked, shaking his head. Then as after a second or two, he took her hand, then whispered without looking at her face,

“This is not my responsibility, Princess. This is yours”

“Eh?”, she asked, puzzled why it was her responsibility to spend time with him.

“This is my right. I am your boyfriend, so it is my right to spend time with you”, he said, giggling at his words.

“jjang! “ they said in unison. Which is followed by an “eeww” from Shin Hye, starting a never ending laugh from that corner of Analog Café.

Shin Hye took her phone ,and before she could take that photo, the guy snap a shot, framing Shin Hye and her Americano.

“Yah! Don’t post that on twitter”, she said, glaring at him.

“Wae-yo?”

“Don’t make a scandal, Oppa!:”

“Shin Hye drinking a coffee? Where is the scandal in there?”

“Ani. Don’t! You don’t know when the netizens would find my reflection and yours in the picture, or your name being translated to Park Shin Hye. Aisssh!”

Geun Suk laughed, remembering how Shin Hye called him in the middle of the night, blabbering things about her reflection on his tweet or that glitch in Weibo.

“Yah!”

“Wae!” he said, smiling. “This one is clear. Jinja?”

“Aisssh! Do you know what the next question would be once I posted that one?”

“Hm?”, he asked, knowing exactly what is in her head.

“Who took that picture? I wonder who Shin Hye-ssi is with in that café?”

“And do you know what would be the next question once you post that photo of 2cups of Americano?”

“Hm?”, she smiled, seeing the green monster sitting beside Geun Suk.

“Who is with Shin Hye? Ah, cham. Her chingu likes Americano, right?”

“You also like Americano, Oppa”, she said, pointing out that fact.

“Yah! So you also know that the other camp would react like that?”, he asked, his eyes cold.

“Boices love me Oppa. They love me as much as your eels hate me”, she said, teasing him, but then, realizing the sensitivity of that topic, she swallowed, and before she could say another word, she saw that guy smiled weakly and then added, “Mian”

“Mian. I didn’t mean to”, she said, biting her lips.

Geun Suk smiled, then said, “some of the eels, I guess, know the real score.”

Silence…..

‘Yah!”, he hissed, startling that girl from her seat.

“Wae?”

“If you post that photo, they will definitely think that some other guy is with you. I’m endorsing Café Benne, remember?”

“Oh? Is it?”, she said, trying to act innocent.

“Aisssh!”, he said, rumpling his hair.

“Yah! Am I not allowed to go with other guys?”, she said and before she could continue, she saw that guy boring hole on her face. She smiled, then said, “Oppa, I mean, I can also go out with Hong Ki, with Seung Gi Oppa…”. Shin Hye bowed her head, seeing that the guy is now glaring at her. Then she added in a whisper, “I mean, I also have other friends, Oppa. Do i really need to drink a cup of coffee with guys. I mean….”

“Ara.. ara… Ah, cham, I heard that you will be going out with the girls”

“Hm”, she said nodding her head.

“When?”, he said, pretending to ask that thing casually.

“Oppa, don’t!

“What? I didn’t say anything”, he said, smiling.

“Don’t! That’s girls’ outing”

“Wae? Why am I not supposed to?”

“Yah!”

“Arasseo.. arasseo”

Shin Hye smiled, having his word on it.

“Oppa..”

“Hm?”

“Kurt Oppa said that you’ll be meeting with Team H?”

“They want to see you”, he said, his eyes bright.

“I would love to see them as well. But, you must spend time with them, Oppa. You and your boys, just like me and my girls”

“Something feels not right. It seems that something is missing. Should I just cancel it?”

“Yah! Why would you think of cancelling it? You haven’t seen each other for a while”

“We haven’t spent time in awhile. You’ll be spending time with the girls, and me spending time with those freaks would mean another day off from us being together”

“Tch! You miss me that much?”,she asked, her eyes smiling.

“Ani”, he answered, his eyes giving him away.

“Guilty of not spending time with the ever understanding girlfriend?”

“Tch! Just want to spend some time with the girlfriend who would not demand of anything, making the boyfriend feel… insecure?”, he asked, his last word, he kept hanging.

“Yah!”, Shin Hye hissed, nudging him on the chest.

Geun Suk laughed heartily. “Guilty for being far too understanding, making the boyfriend feel not missed?”

“You are missed. You know you are?”

Geun Suk pouted, looked at her, then said, “Jinja? How much?”, he asked like a kid.

“This much”, Shin Hye said, stretching her arms.

“Hm?”, he asked, not quite convinced.

Shin Hye pulled her chair nearer to him, then hugged him tightly, then pulled away, before that guy could hug him back. She smiled then said, “Nomu nomu nomu”, she said, as she held his face, pecking his lips for who knows how many.

And before she could pull away, after her final peck, the guy held her face as well, grinned. Shin Hye’s eyes widened, knowing exactly what that guy would do. Her eyeballs scanned the room and before she could protest, the guy met her lips, kissing her for who knows how long.

“Nomu nomu nomu saranghae”

—-

That afternoon of their BBQ party, as Shin Hye was driving her car, she received a call from that guy.

“Wae-yo?”

“I can do the bbq while you’re chatting with your friends”

“Yah! Oppa! Don’t! We can handle that”

“That would be difficult”, he asked, pushing his luck.

“Oppa, I’m hanging up. You know you cannot”

“Arasseo.. arasseo… I love you”

“I love you too”

All through that afternoon, Shin Hye’s phone kept on ringing, that guy asking some random things, such as..

“Do you have enough ice?”

“Oppa, we can manage”

“Drinks? Do you want me to bring some drinks?”

“Oppa, we still have one cooler of sodas”

“Pizza? Anyone who want to have some pizza?”

“Oppa! Aisssh! Jinja!”, Shin Hye is getting irritated by a minute.

“Shin Hye, why didn’t you invite Geun Suk”, one of her friends asked.

“Aisssh!”, Shin Hye mumbled, glaring at her friend.

“Yah, Shin Hye-ssi, why didn’t you invite me?”

“Oppa, I’m hanging up. One more call and I’m telling you, I will turn off this phone, and you cannot call me this entire day”

“Yah! Park Shin Hye”

“Don’t push me, Oppa!”

“Arasseo.. arasseo… call me when you’re done. Love you”

“Hm”

“I love you”

“Aisssh!”

“I love you”

“I love you too”, she said in a whisper, which earned her a never teasing from her friends.

—-
“I wonder how it is to have the Asia Prince as a boyfriend”,one of her friends asked.

“He’s not the Asia Prince when he’s with Shin Hye”, the other answered.

“We haven’t seen him in a while. Why didn’t you bring him here?”

“Did anyone bring a boyfriend? Boyfriend not allowed, right?”

“Oh, was there an agreement?”

“Eh”, Shin Hye would want to scold her friends, but before she did, two of her girl friend’s boyfriends already arrived.

“Mian… we didn’t know”, her friends apologized as she glared at them.
And then, 15 minutes later, the respective boyfriends of the other girl friends arrived, making her the “extra” wheel, feeling out of place of the sweetness of her surroundings.

Irritated, Shin Hye dialled that number. The first ring has not finished yet, the guy has already answered the call.

“Hm?”, he asked, she could see his smile amidst their distance.

“Nothing”,she said, pride preventing her from asking him to come over.

“Miss me?”

“Hm?” she answered blandly.

“Are you going to say something?”

“Hm… Oppa, I need to hang up. They’re already calling me. Love you”

—–

Since the arrival of those unexpected guests (at least, unexpected for her), Shin Hye has exiled herself to that BBQ corner, irritated of her friends.

She was fanning those squids and fish, when out of the blue, she heard that familiar voice. “Would you want to take revenge on eels? How about grilled eel?”

Shin Hye’s eyes widened, hoping but not expecting that soul to come in flesh at that moment.

“Oppa, how did you….”

Geun Suk just tilted his head, smiled and said, “I was thinking of you… I can hear your words even before you could think about it. Is that something new?”, he answered, making it appear that what they have is as normal as having the sun rises in the east,or it setting in the west.

—–

Boys night out…

“You’ve been playing with that bottle for quite a while”, Seong Bin said, as he took a gulp from his.

“Tch! Don’t mind me. I’m just thinking of something. Where are we on the album?”

“Something? Tch! Is Shin Hye a thing now?”, Jeong Seong answered, teasing him.

“Yah! Geun Suk, don’t you have any other word aside from, “where are we on the album?” I guess you’ve asked that for five times now, and we have discussed that for six times?”, he continued, earning a series of laughter from the guys.

“Love sick? Yah! Punk, you have just met with her before you arrived here, right?”, Kurt added, shaking his head.

Geun Suk shook his head, smiling. “We haven’t spent that much of time during this break…”

“Let me guess. You didn’t actually plan of meeting us today, right?”

Geun Suk grinned, guilty as charged.

“Yah! If I will ask you now, would you really choose Shin Hye over us?”, Rok asked, shaking his head.

“You know I love you dude” he answered in a tone dead serious, then he smiled mischievously and continued, “I don’t want to hurt you, but do you really need to hear the answer?”

“Aisssh!”

They were laughing like crazy, then thirty minutes later, before the clock strikes twelve, Geun Suk was already yawning, feeling uncomfortable of the number of girls invited in their table.

He was tempted to call that girl, when his eyes met that someone who just entered the shop, her clothes tight fitting, their eyes glued on her body. Geun Suk swallowed as he saw that figure, forgetting in an instant why he took that phone.

The girl smiled flirtatiously and together with her girl friends, she asked if it’s ok to join them, and when she had the approval, she sat beside Geun Suk, her body leaning against his.

They were all laughing, flirting with one another, the eyes of the other guys glued at Geun Suk, worried of his next move. The guy has already down some bottles and they were worried whether he could still remember that girl who they once met at a group date like this.
Geun Suk was laughing like crazy, the façade was too convincing, making any outsider, especially to those girls, appear that he will be taking home that girl.

Ten minutes or so, Geun Suk excused himself, then dialled a number.

“Hm?”

“Hi….”, he said, not sure why he made that call.

“Hm?”, she asked back.

“Are you home already?”

“Wae?”

“Nothing… I love you.”, then he hangs up.

Twenty minutes later, as he’s killing time, burning his lungs, the girl from their table, went out as well, thinking that Geun Suk was waiting for her.

“You have light?”, she asked, as she approached him, her body almost an inch from his.

Geun Suk shook his head, laughed at the bold move, but gave her light as requested.

The girl was obviously flirting with him, once in a while moving too close, pressing her body against his.

Geun Suk distanced his self, remembering his girl. He’s still playing along, but he knows his limit.

Probably getting bored of the conversation, “My place or yours?”, the girl asked, as she had a final hit from her cigarette.

Geun Suk shook his head, with litted cigarette in between his fingers, he scratched his forehead, expecting those words.

And before he could say a word, he heard that voice he’s longing to hear, “How about mine?”, she asked, as she walked near them, her arms crossed on her chest.

The girl instinctively looked at the owner of the voice, smirked as she eyed that girl from head to toe, laughing at her sweat pants and jacket-attire, probably not recognizing that face because of her hood covering her head.

Shin Hye gave her a head-to-toe scan as well, swallowed as she realized that she was a bit out of place, and then, before Geun Suk could come to her rescue, she smirked as well, removed her hood, revealing a white tank top, accentuating her asset, which she seldom shows off.

The girl did not need to scan her body, for as soon as she recognized her face, she smiled, nodded and said, “I guess this means I need to take my leave.”

Shin Hye smiled, nodded her head as well, respecting that girl for the respect given to her.

Then remembering the reason she was there, Shin Hye looked at Geun Suk whose eyes are now taking a feast on her chest.

“Should I take off more?”, she asked sarcastically.

“Aisssh!”, he said as he took her jacket, wrapping that girl before someone else take a notice of her. “What are you doing here?”, he asked, smiling.

“I was just passing by..”, she said with a smirk.

“Tch! What are you doing here?”

“I think I heard you asking me to come, didn’t you?”

Geun Suk shook his head, “This is getting scary. I can read you in as much as you can read me, amidst our distance”, he said his forehead on hers, and then in an instant, he pushed her to the wall, pinning her. “I have downed some bottle”, he said as his face is an inch from hers, his hand on her waist. “Are you not scared?”

“Should i?”, she said as she moved her face nearing him, their lips almost touching each other.

Geun Suk stared at her lips, then looked directly to her eyes. “Better be”

“I can read you, in as much as you can read me”, she answered with a smirk.

Geun Suk closed his eyes, then smiled.”As I was saying, I better bring you home, before you can read something not so good in my eyes”

Shin Hye smiled, then before that guy moved away, she held his face, then gave him one quick kiss on the lips. “This is why I love you the most, Oppa”

Geun Suk smiled, then pulled away, “something is odd. Something seems missing…”

“Hm?”

“My missing piece. Now I’m complete”

“Jjang!” they exclaimed in unison, shaking their head of the cheesiness.

Geun Suk placed his arm around her shoulder, while the girl has wrapped hers on his waist.

They walked side by side, their words only they can understand.
With those smiles on their faces, it was them, and only them can hear the beating of their hearts.
His heart beating for her and hers for his…
This story is theirs and theirs alone…

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2* Missing [Us]

One of those few mornings, those not so frequent times that he could wake up in this side of Seoul, Geun Suk got up early, a smile plastered on his face as he took his running shoes, running-singing while giving his Mom a peck on her cheek.

No need to say a word. As he opened his car, Mrs. Jang shouted from the living room before her only son flew to that side of Seoul, “Kiss me to my daughter-in-law”.

Geun Suk smiled, and before he entered his car, he looked back to his Mom and said, “Should I bring her home, Eomma?”

“Tch! You know I would love that, Suk-di”, his Mom answered with a smirk, disappointed-frustrated that upto this point, he could not still get that girl to agree for a marriage.

“Eomma!”, Geun Suk squinted his eyes, frustrated as well that the girl would not budge on her timelines, and would not agree to skip any pre-agreed prerequisites.

“Arasseo.. arasseo”, his Mom nodded her head, knowing how stubborn, strong headed that girl is.

And before he completely settle his self inside his car, Geun Suk, with a mischievous smile, looked at his Mom again and said, “Should I drag her,Eomma and bring her to a very far secluded place, make a scandal, so she would be left with no choice but to marry me?”

Geun Suk Eomma grinned and with a sarcastic tone, said, “Should I just disown you, Geun Suk? Aisssh! You go and meet my Shin Hye before someone else’s makes an appointment with her again. Aigoo! You are the boyfriend, and yet you could barely see each other. The Asia Prince has no time to meet my Princess. I wonder until when can Shin Hye put up with this set up”

Geun Suk’s face has changed from bright to dark. He closed his eyes knowing the truth behind his Eomma’s teasing. He smiled weakly, and before he could make his way inside his car, he heard his Mom, probably sensing his change of mood, said, “You know she loves you so much, Suk-di”

Geun Suk heaved a sigh, not wanting to make his Mom feel guilty about it, he smiled and said, “She won’t find anyone like me, Eomma. There is only one Jang Geun Suk.”

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As he parked his car at that side of Han, while waiting for that girl to arrive, his words kept on ringing in his ears… she won’t find anyone like me…. She won’t find anyone like me… she won’t find anyone like me…. But…BUT, she can find someone better than me.. far better than me… someone more deserving of that soul… more deserving of that heart.

Geun Suk closed his eyes, his heart enveloped by that fear again.

Every now and then, he would have that insecurity.. that fear… that worry…

What if one day Shin Hye suddenly realizes that he’s not the one for her… what if one day, Shin Hye finds someone far better than him..more deserving of her… what if the stars play their trick again…

Aisssh! Call him narrow-minded, worrywart, but really, his chest tightens, his eyes tearing whenever those thoughts would pass his mind. He loves her…. Loves her so much….

And as he tried to wipe away those tears that are threatening to fall, he saw that girl in tights and tee, with a white pullover and her New Balance shoes, driving Pixie along the Han, her headphone on, oblivious of her surrounding again.

Geun Suk smiled upon seeing that innocent face.. and those blank stares. She was riding Pixie, a sweet smile on her face, probably remembering something.. someone, and then a pout was formed on her lips after a second or two.

As that girl made a U-turn, she accidentally bumped into someone which made that someone fell down, hitting the ground. Surprised, Shin Hye immediately went down of Pixie, without looking at the face of that someone, she kept on mumbling, “Gwaenchanayo? Gwaenchanayo?”.

Tears brimming in her eyes, as she tried to inspect the damage that she has made. Shin Hye knelt down, trying to take a peek at that face covered by his arm, and before a tear fell down from her eyes, she felt a hand grabbing her, hugging her in the process.

Startled, Shin Hye would want to fight back if not for that familiar touch and that familiar voice, “Saranghae…”

With widened eyes, Shin Hye pinched that guy in the torso and whispered, “I hate you”, as her impending tears finally roll down her cheeks.

They stayed in that position, Geun Suk on the ground, his arm wrapped around that girl on top of him, when suddenly, the girl whispered in his ears, “Oppa, people are staring at us”

“Tch! Let them stare! I miss my Shin Hye”

“Oppa!”, Shin Hye said, trying to break free from his embrace.

Geun Suk smiled, slowly loosened his arms around her. The girl immediately stood up, lowered her cap, avoiding the stares of the passersby.

Geun Suk grinned as he saw that girl, trying very hard to avoid the eyes of everyone.

As he stood up, he walked beside Pixie, pushing it away from that area.

“You didn’t bring your bike?”, she asked, as they walked side by side away from those eyes.

Geun Suk simply shook his head, his eyes focused on the road.

Shin Hye tilted her head, trying to see his face. “What are you doing here?”, she asked, her heart beating a thousand.

“Why were you smiling earlier and then pouted?”, he asked back.

Shin Hye’s face flushed upon hearing his words. She swallowed and then with poker face,said, “Did i? I did not notice”

Geun Suk smirked, then eyed that girl dangerously, “You’re really bad at lying”, he said shaking his head.

“Yah!”, Shin Hye said, stomping her foot.

“Wae?”, he asked back, his eyes smiling.

“Aisssh! Oppa!”

“I miss you”

“Eh?”, Shin Hye’s eyes widened upon hearing those words.

“I miss you.. I miss myself.. I miss us…”

Shin Hye looked at him, her eyes asking what those words were.

“You asked me what I was doing here, right? I want to see you..i want to see me… I want to see us…”, he said, his eyes not leaving her face.

Shin Hye smiled shyly and then whispered, “I remembered you.. I remembered us, and then I remembered I was alone”

“Hm?”, it was then his turn to be puzzled.

“You were asking why I was smiling, then suddenly pouted, right? I miss us”,then she smiled shyly, as that guy held her hand, his smile from ear to ear.

As they reached that lone tree in the middle of that park, Geun Suk stopped, parked Pixie at one corner, then stood there with eyes closed, his back leaning against the tree trunk.

Shin Hye stopped beside where Pixie was parked, and then looked at that guy who seemed to be lost in his trail of thoughts.

Shin Hye slowly walked near him, leaned her back against the trunk as well, settling herself beside Geun Suk.

“Oppa…” she asked, her eyes closed as well.

“Hm?”

“What were you thinking?”

“Us”

“Eh! Why? Is there a problem with us?”

She felt him smiled and then said, “Ani.. I’m having a problem with myself”

“Eh”,Shin Hye’s eyes were forced open, as she heard those words. “Did I hurt you Oppa? Where did I hit you?”,she asked one after the other, worry evident in her voice.

“You hit me here”, he said, pointing to his heart.

“Yah! Funny”, she said, hitting him on the chest.

But the guy was fast. He might have expected it, for before her fist landed on his chest, he held them tightly, pushed her, such that the girl was trapped between him and that tree.

Shin Hye looked at his face, her eyes searching for his. “Is there a problem, Oppa?”, she asked, as her hand was playing with his.

Geun Suk shook his head,smiled, then slowly looked at her. “I love you…”

“Ara.. Nado”, she said, smiling at him.

Geun Suk tucked some of her loose hair behind her ears then continued, “I don’t know what I will do if you leave me, Shin Hye”

“Oppa…”, she whispered, reading the sadness in his eyes.

“Mianhae… we don’t see each other that much. “

“I understand, Oppa. No need to worry. I understand. Follow your heart. Follow your dreams. Shin Hye will stay. I told you, right. I will stay”

“My heart is in here”, he said as he’s trailing his finger on her palm, and as he looked at her eyes, he continued, “my dream is looking directly into my eyes”

Shin Hye held his face, smiled, then said, “What has gotten into my Geun Suk? Why the sudden heavy mood?”

Geun Suk averted his eyes, but held her hand which was on his face.

“Oppa… wae-yo? What happened?”

“I can’t lose you. Call me selfish, but I don’t think I can lose you. If, in any chance, you get tired of me, can you at least spare me a chance or two before you totally leave me?”, he asked, his eyes pleading like a kid.

“I always believe in you, Oppa. You may give me the lamest excuse possible, the weirdest justification available, but I will always choose to believe you. When you told me before that the stars have agreed for us to be together, I thought you mean that agreement is until our ever after ends. Do you think ever after would end that fast?”

“Can we not allow that ever after to end?”

“I thought I heard someone said the he will not allow it to end”

“You and me, until forever”

“if the stars won’t believe in us.. we will not give up without a fight”

“Ani.. we will not give up.” He smiled rubbing his nose on hers.

Shin Hye smiled back, loving the warmth in his eyes.

“Ah,cham. Eomma asked me to give you something”

“Hm?” and before she could say a word, Geun Suk gave her a quick peck on the cheeks. “Eh?”

“A kiss for her daughter-in-law”, and then, he held her face, a smile on his lips, he planted a kiss on her forehead, and whispered, “ a kiss on my heart.. on my dream… on my girl… the better me.. “

Then Shin Hye placed her arms on his shoulder, then added “ for the US through forever” then she tiptoed, giving him a soft kiss on the lips.

The guy hugged her tightly, “I love you”

The girl hugged him back,” I love you too”

And there, just like before, just like those early mornings and late night meet ups, the Han has once again became the sole witness of those tears… those laughters… their longings… their sweet nothings… And as they held each other, though they may not be aware of it, their silent witness has whispered a prayer, just like what it always does on those mornings and nights..

let those hearts hold unto each other… their souls not leaving the other.

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1* Missing You Badly

“Where are you?”

“Oppa?”

“I’m here in front of theatre building. Until when is your class?”

“Eh, Oppa… why… what are…”

“Tch! I’m parked at the usual place. Give me a call once your class ends”

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Shin Hye looked at her phone as she heard the busy sound. “What’s with that guy?”, she smiled, shaking her head.

The moment her class ended, she took her phone and dialled that number.

“The class just ended Oppa. Where are you?”

“Just wait for me in front. I’ll pick you up there”.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

“Hal! Second time. Jinja! You’ll see Geun Suk!”, Shin Hye let out a chuckle as she made her way out of the building.

Not less than two minutes, a red Ferrari stopped in front of her.

As she made her way inside the car, Shin Hye did not bother to give the chauffer a peck on the cheek, just like the usual; instead, she squinted her eyes and said in gritted teeth, “I told you not to bring this car here, didn’t I?”

“Tch! What’s wrong with the car?”, Geun Suk said, chewing his lips, trying to recover from the embarrassment of that expected kiss. He was about to lean towards her, waiting for that kiss, when he was taken aback by that look.

“The whole of Korea knew whose car is this.”

“It’s as if they don’t know that I own that white Porsche or that black land rover”, he said, as he maneuvered the car outside of Chung Ang.

“Louis and Khan are ok. At least a certain percentage of Korea’s population are used to those… not this!”

“What’s wrong with this car?”, he said, quite irritated of that sudden stubbornness. “Aren’t we settled on this one yet? We have discussed this a couple of times, didn’t we? Or should I say my sorry again for impulsively buying this one, and for making you worry”

Shin Hye looked at him, then said, “I don’t care about this car.”, Shin Hye heaved a sigh and then, “Just don’t pick me up again using this car”.

“Wae? What’s wrong with me picking you up?”

“Jang Geun Suk! I didn’t say there’s something wrong on you picking me up. Are you even listening? Just don’t pick me up using this car!”, she said, smoke starting to flare in her nose.

“Why! Just give me one good reason why I must not pick you up with this one?”, he said, looking back at her.

Shin Hye met her gaze and without batting her eyes, she said, “Didn’t you get it? Only a handful owns this car in Korea. And seeing me getting in to this car would start a fire of rumours that a certain girl from Chung Ang was picked up by Geun Suk’s Ferrari. I wonder who that girl is. Ah, cham, Park Shin Hye is studying in Chung Ang, right?”

Geun Suk looked at her and with disbelief written all over his face, he averted her eyes and let out a dangerous laugh. “So we’re going back to that thing again. Park Shin Hye, I’m getting sick of this argument. I know we have agreed that we will not disclose this one, but don’t you think we’re making a fool of ourselves when all of the world already know the real score, where here we are, trying our best to pretend that nothing is going on”.

“Don’t give me that argument, Geun Suk. We agreed on this”

“Don’t you get tired?’

“Do you?”

“Ha!”Geun Suk looked at her with pain in his eyes. He heaved a sigh then decided to keep quiet.

All along the ride, no word was said. No sound was heard. Shin Hye was just looking outside the window, trying to control her tears. What a great I miss you. We seldom see each other and you will greet me with this.

Geun Suk was just holding the steering wheel, he would at times took a peek at that girl seated beside him. I miss you. I have a lot of things to tell you. Why does it have to end this way?

As they reached their favourite spot at the Han, Geun Suk stopped the engine and let everything be drowned in silence. They both waited, silently pleading for the other to break the silence.

When she could not take it anymore, Shin Hye opened the passenger’s seat and walked out of his car.

Startled, Geun Suk immediately stepped down, following closely behind her.

She knew, he went down. She knew, he was following behind her.

“Ahhhh!”, Shin Hye screamed, and when she was about to look back, she felt a pair of hands wrapped tightly around her, her face buried to his chest.

Surprised, with widened eyes, Shin Hye blinked twice and thrice, let her breathing normalize, then, she closed her eyes.

“Mianhae.. mianhae…”, the guy whispered to her ears, as he held her tightly.

Shin Hye chose not to say a word. She listened to her heart.. to his heart…

Ten.. fifteen seconds after, “Are you really getting tired?’, she asked against his chest.

“I’m tired. You know I am.”, Geun Suk said, while kissing her head.

Dumbfounded, Shin Hye looked up at him, and with tears brimming in her eyes, she said, “Mianhae, if I’m making it too difficult. You do know that I love you, right? I understand. I know you’re tired. Mianhae…”

Confused, Geun Suk looked at her, and before she freed herself from his grip, Geun Suk held on her tighter.

Lost, Shin Hye wiggled herself to break loose, and said, “I understand, Oppa…. Ara…”

As she said those words, Shin Hye felt his arm loosened around her. Disoriented, she closed her eyes, then slowly walked away. I didn’t expect it to end this way.

As she took a step farther, she heard him chuckle, and then a hand grab hers. “Do you really want to die, Park Shin Hye? Or, would it be an ease for you to see me dropping dead here? Shoot me. Just shoot me. I think that would be easier.” He said, glaring at her.

Taken aback, Shin Hye took a step back, then slowly, she faced him, “You said you’re tired”

“You know I am”

“Tch! I’m just setting you free”

“Am I asking for it?”

“Oppa….”

“Do you want me to flick your forehead, young lady?”

Puzzled, Shin Hye tilted her head, then silently said, “I thought…”

Geun Suk smirked, pulled her to him, and when his lips are an inch from hers, he said while looking in her eyes, “I miss you. I miss you badly. I’m tired… too sick and tired, but knowing that at the end of the day, I will be coming home to you, somehow, all the pain, the longing, become nothing. You know I can only rest when I’m with you…I love you…”

He looked into her eyes for a second or two, then his eyes slowly lowered down to her lips. His eyes, fixed on her lips, lost in his passion, and then as if being called for, he closed his eyes as she closed hers, then the meeting of their lips happened. Geun Suk held on her waist tightly as his other hand has a grip on her face, not showing any sign of letting go. His kiss was deep… too deep that Shin Hye thought she got lost within that sensation. He did not let her go, he captured those lips for who knows how long. He missed her.. misses her badly.

Shin Hye did not know what to do, or how to react. The feeling was different, too intense…. Too strong. She closed her eyes tightly as tears start to fall from her eyes. She missed this guy.. she misses him badly.

Still not letting go of her, Geun Suk rested his forehead on hers, smiled then said, “You’re not that bad of a kisser as they described you to be”.

With widened eyes, Shin Hye was about to say something, when that guy’s lips landed on hers again and then said, “Do it like that, and you’re dead! There will be a blood pool next door, and the flower boy will definitely be at the center”.

“Yah!” Shin Hye said, blushing.

Geun Suk smiled, then silently whispered, still not letting go of her, “I have matured, right? The boyfriend does not throw tantrum anymore everytime the girlfriend go out and walk down the red carpet, or when the girlfriend is paired with someone else”, he said, still leaving butterfly kisses on her face.

“Tch! What’s the sudden hanging up on me… not only once, Oppa…. But twice..”

Geun Suk averted his eyes, and when he was about to let go, Shin Hye held unto him, her arms wrapped around his neck. The guy smiled, then said, “Everyone is taking a notice of my Little Missy….”

“Hm?”, she said, smiling.

“You really like it when you see me like this, don’t you?’, he asked, rubbing his nose on hers.

“I’m listening, Oppa”, she said, giggling.

“The boyfriend suddenly becomes jealous, jealousy turned to worry.. worry became fear…”

“Hm? “

“While I see you walking down the red carpet, my head was held high. That’s my girlfriend…Tch! Then I looked around, only to find out that I am like an idiot talking to myself. I wanted to go out and brag to everyone that.., that girl is my girl….girlfriend, but I couldn’t do so. Everyone is saying that Park Shin Hye is stunning.. flawless… elegant.. classy… I wanted to tell to everyone that.. Hey, that girl is mi….my girlfriend”

“And..”, Shin Hye said while looking at him.

“Yah!”

“And.. you still want to say something Jang Geun Suk-ssi”

“tch!!! That girl is my girlfriend, so better keep your distance from her”, he said, his head bowed down, embarrassed of his immaturity.

Shin Hye smiled, then said, “While I look at those clips of the Cri Show, and the photo of that guy who’s working really hard amidst the pain and the longing for his Princess”, Shin Hye slowed down her last words, reading the face of that guy, and when she saw him smile, she tilted her head, then continued, “ I silently screamed to everyone…. That guy is mine. And I am his… “.

Then the girl tiptoed, pulled his face closer to her, then gave him one soft kiss on the lips.

Lost moments
Sweet kisses
This time is theirs.. and theirs alone..
Missing you badly….

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