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unspoken words of that stubborn soul…

3* A Little Bit of Something

“Five minutes!?”, the guy smirked as Geun Suk approached the bench at the park. Kurt handed him a cup of coffee, while Geun Suk offered him light for his cigarette.

“Punk! Don’t ruin my mind trail!”

“Tch! Does that mind trail include a girl in the land of Uncle Sam, driving a Maserati, with a flower boy as a chauffeur?”

“Nah. The mind trail include a guy who can finish a conversation in ten seconds flat!”

“Awww. Jang Geun Suk-ssi, i am not available at the moment. And if ever you decide to leave that someone i know…. nah… i won’t convince you to come back to her. One second Geun Suk, and i will be one of those guys waiting to have a taste of that kid’s blood”

Geun Suk smirked, and threw daggers straight to that guy.

“You wish, dude. you wish”

“Same as the wishes of the other guys out there. Tch!”

Silence…

Kurt shook his head, smiling as he flicked the end of his cigarette. He may have known that guy for years, knowing how the wheels in his head turn, but when it comes to his insecurity for that girl, he may never know the end of it.

“Have you talked to her?”

“Hm?” Geun Suk answered absentmindedly.

“I asked, have you talked to her?”

“The friend? um.. yeah. The girlfriend, haven’t”

Kurt simply looked at him.. dumbfounded, but knowing him and her, he just shook his head and smiled.

Message ping.

“Oppa, can i talk you?”

Kurt read the message, then looked at that guy.

“What?”, Geun Suk said, as he took a sip from his cup.

“My friend sent me a message. Would you like to check whether the friend or the girlfriend sent you one as well?”

“Nope. She definitely did not. Neither of the two would have. And…. given the recent turns of events, I’d rather not check if i would want to keep my words”

“Crazy b*stard! Can i answer this one while you’re sulking here, or would you prefer me in a distance?”

“I dare you to do it, Kurt. I dare you, if you still want to see the sun shines tomorrow”

“Easy!”., Kurt said in surrender. I’m just having some fun here. It’s not so many times that i have you wrapped around my finger, or so they said”

“Tch. Pali, call her. She must have something important to tell you”

“Maybe… might be as important as the coffee date last night”

“She told you that?”

“Ow! Is it a national secret? Dude, relax. It’s just coffee.. coffee in the desert.. haha”

“You, punk!….”

“Yeoboseyo? Yup.. it’s ok. I’m free. Where are you?”

“Malibu Beach…”, echoed from the speaker.

Malibu Beach…Tch!

“Kurt Oppa, have you heard from Geun Suk Oppa? He’s not answering my calls”

Geun Suk looked at the phone, and then at Kurt, his forehead creased.

“Oppa, are you on speaker?”

Geun Suk could not follow whatever it is that Kurt was answering. His mind focused on that girl, his ears only hearing her words.

“Hal! I’m not ranting about him. He won’t even give me a chance to nag. He won’t even call me. He won’t even answer my calls. Min Ho Oppa thought i’m a bit of a psycho. I was just staring at my phone, waiting for his message”

Tch! You made me promise. What are you? Hormonal! One call… just one ring and you’ll turn my world upside down…not that it’s not inverted at the moment

“It must be the waves of the ocean, Oppa. Wait, i’ll pick another spot”

Tch! Waves of the ocean… Is someone bothering you at the moment, Princess? Aisssh!!!!, Geun Suk thought to himself as he was flipping the pages of the magazine.

“Hm… the air is quite nice. And the sea seems to sing at night. I wonder how the ocean sounds in Phuket.”, she said, shaking her head as if remembering something.

“Why don’t you ask the guy who’s been going in and out of there?”

Silence…

Geun Suk’s hands stilled, as he heard the echoes of her heart.

Princess….

“Shin Hye….?”

“Hm… there are some things which are better left unsaid… better not to ask…”

The ghost of that year is still haunting us down. Happy anniversary! Geun Suk thought sarcastically as he remembered that it’s only a month over one year when that incident happened. That incident that broke and shattered them both. But they came stronger together, didn’t they?

“Shin Hye?”

“Mianhae, Oppa. Maybe, i just felt tired.. bored.. disappointed. I’m quite hormonal.. ha ha ha”, she faked a laugh, hiding her tears.

Geun Suk looked at the phone, his face blank.

“I wonder how Sri Panwa looks like. I wonder how he feels whenever he goes there. I wonder what he needs to escape to, and what he finds as an escape whenever he’s in there. Aissssh! But, i won’t ask. I won’t dare.”

Silence….

Geun Suk’s heart stopped beating. He stilled, his eyes not leaving the phone.

Empty… lonely…I need to escape your absence, to tear myself from becoming a lost puppy whenever you’re not around. What i find as an escape? Myself… myself who’s missing you.. i’m trying to escape the emptiness only to come face to face with that man without his heart. I need a distraction…. A serene place with the sunset at the back drop.. our song playing softly at the background and your face appearing in repeat mode whenever i closed my eyes. Crazy… jinja… crazy.. what has become of me?!? Ask me Princess… Dare to ask and you will find the deepest secret of my escapes in Sri Panwa… Mianhae… mianhae… up til now, those were the only words that i can offer for the heartaches of that year

“I thought…”, Kurt said, his eyes anywhere but on Geun Suk’s.

“Ha ha ha. Don’t tell Oppa. Kurt Oppa, promise me, you won’t tell Oppa. I will sound a bit whiny. It’s either he’ll tease me to death, or he’ll find me a bit too childish. Ha!”

“A.. cham.. Oppa, have you seen the stills? Haha.. i was trying to reach Geun Suk Oppa. I want to tease him about the Maserati. The car is quite fast, but Min Ho Oppa is not quite familiar. I wanted to steal the wheels and drive it myself. “

“Shin Hye?”

“A.. i sprained my ankle the other day. We were shooting some scenes. I accidentally twisted my ankle….. And the day before that, i was with Min Hyuk. You’ve met him before, right? Hm… what else. I met some stars at the set. I was really overwhelmed Oppa. If you only saw my face when i saw the banners….”

Geun Suk had shut them off… those words..those words were like white noise being drowned in the background.

What do you want me to do, Princess… tell me…is this my signal to call that deal off? Can i come to you now? Or is it this time that i should stay still and watch you from the sideline.. Mianhae… mianhae.. i’m having a hard time decoding your words. is it too difficult, or am i simply trying to ignore your words, finding an excuse to call this off?

She’s scared. Her fear eating her whole.
She’s fading. She’s sinking…
She’s trying to reach out… waiting for him to save her.

“Kurt Oppa, they’re already looking for me. Kamsa….”

“Take care, Shin Hye…”, and as Kurt was about to end the call, Geun Suk stopped his hand in mid air…. prolonging their connection.

And as if she sensed it, he saw her smile, and whispered, “I’m doing great, Oppa, right?”

Geun Suk nodded his head, and whispered, “Saranghae”

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2* A Little Bit of Her

Geun Suk was driving along Han when he suddenly remembered something. He stopped driving that Ferrari, tapped his fingers on the steering wheel while humming that familiar song…

I will promise you
Du nu nen no man dam go sa ra gal ke
I will promise you
Du pa run no lan go sa ra gal ke
A chi me nun to jam dun sun gan ka ji
No ha na man gu ril ke
Sa rang he I mal it ji ma
I love you forever

He looked at the Han, shook his head as he remembered what it was that his head was trying to hum.. was it his head or his heart?

“Aigoo, Go Mi Nam-ssi!”

He squinted his eyes, did that familiar Hwang Tae Kyung pout as he tried to ponder on something.

“I should have really befriended that punk.”, he shook his head as he remembered that episode.

“Lee Min Ho-ssi.. Lee Seung Gi, Yoo Ah In, Kim Soo Hyun, Yoo Seung Ho… tsk tsk tsk. Lee Seung Gi, check. Yoo Seung Ho, check. And now, Lee Min Ho-ssi! What the! Three out of five in one year. Yoon Si Yoon did a retake. Lee Jong Suk and Jung Il Woo joined the bandwagon. Aisssh! What were you thinking Jang Geun Suk when you decided to date that girl?”

Tap. Tap. Tap.

“She acts like a guy… talks like one of your guy friends…plays like your biggest competition in any sport. Heck, she could even beat you in car racing. She’s not even that pretty…. not even that pretty… hm… pretty… yepuda, jinja.. nope… really… jinja.. Aisssh!”

He took his phone and dialed one number.

“Where are you? Meet me at the Han in five.”

Plain and simple. Conversation should be that fast. No script writing, script reading.. planning your lines even before she answer the phone. No need to tell someone you miss her or you can’t wait to see her sooner. No pretense… pretense…

The simple hi, would be followed by hey…the courteous how are you… the overrated i miss you’s. You’re too sleepy to start a conversation, a little too annoyed to check in for you will only be discussing some trivial things, asking have you eaten already.. what did you have for dinner, and then will shift to how’s eommonim? Is Sunni doing fine? The never ending sharing of what i did and did not do.. what she did and hope she didn’t.. then, the classic, Oppa, do you think I’m getting bigger (which is a subtle way of asking whether she’s getting fatter)? You’re fighting your eyes from closing, trying to hide your laughter, when she would suddenly mention that she had coffee with Lee Min Ho-ssi last night and you would abruptly sat up from lying, your back against the headboard of your bed. You’re gritting your teeth, trying your best to calm your nerves, asking nonchalantly how the coffee tasted, and how long was it before she finished the cup, which by the way is the not so obvious way of asking how long the coffee date was.

No pretense. A bit boring. No specific topic. No plan on the flow of conversation. You wished to end it fast… fast… Until she said, good night and wished you sweet dreams and you find yourself hanging on the line hoping it won’t end that soon.

Smiling, Geun Suk drove back to the park, hoping to meet that someone in five.

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1* A Little Bit Too Much

“Where are you?”, Kurt asked her while sipping a cup of coffee, his eyes focused on that guy who’s flipping the car magazine a little too rough than normal.

“Malibu Beach…”, she answered nonchalantly, her voice a bit bored.

Kurt looked at that guy again, who smirked a little, a bit too annoyed.

“Kurt Oppa, have you heard from Geun Suk Oppa? He’s not answering my calls”, her voice a bit too calm to the ears.

Kurt’s eyes almost bulged. He mouthed, “punk!”, and then, he shook his head while answering, “i’ll be meeting him in a few”

“Oppa, are you on speaker?”

“a…um… deh… i’m eating something”

“oh.. i thought you’re with someone”

“a… i’m at the park. not a lot of people at this time of the day. No one would hear your rants against your Oppa”

“Hal! I’m not ranting about him. He won’t even give me a chance to nag. He won’t even call me. He won’t even answer my calls. Min Ho Oppa thought i’m a bit of a psycho. I was just staring at my phone, waiting for his message”

“tch”, Geun Suk smirked, the pages of the magazine almost got torn.

“Oppa?”

Kurt eyed Geun Suk, asking him to behave or he’ll come clean to Shin Hye.

“Oppa, are you there?”

“Shin hye-yah, mianhae. The line is not clear”

“It must be the waves of the ocean, Oppa. Wait, i’ll pick another spot”

“Malibu Beach, ha”, he repeated smiling.

“Hm… the air is quite nice. And the sea seems to sing at night. I wonder how the ocean sounds in Phuket.”, she said, shaking her head as if remembering something.

“Why don’t you ask the guy who’s been going in and out of there?”

Silence…

Geun Suk’s hands stilled, as he heard the echoes of her heart.

“Shin Hye….?”

“Hm… there are some things which are better left unsaid… better not to ask…”

“Shin Hye?”

“Mianhae, Oppa. Maybe, i just felt tired.. bored.. disappointed. I’m quite hormonal.. ha ha ha”, she faked a laugh, hiding her tears.

Geun Suk looked at the phone, his face blank.

“I wonder how Sri Panwa looks like. I wonder how he feels whenever he goes there. I wonder what he needs to escape to, and what he finds as an escape whenever he’s in there. Aissssh! But, i won’t ask. I won’t dare.”

Silence….

“I thought…”, Kurt said, his eyes anywhere but on Geun Suk’s.

“Ha ha ha. Don’t tell Oppa. Kurt Oppa, promise me, you won’t tell Oppa. I will sound a bit whiny. It’s either he’ll tease me to death, or he’ll find me a bit too childish. Ha!”

Silence….

“A.. cham.. Oppa, have you seen the stills? Haha.. i was trying to reach Geun Suk Oppa. I want to tease him about the Maserati. The car is quite fast, but Min Ho Oppa is not quite familiar. I wanted to steal the wheels and drive it myself. ”

“Shin Hye?”

“A.. i sprained my ankle the other day. We were shooting some scenes. I accidentally twisted my ankle….. And the day before that, i was with Min Hyuk. You’ve met him before, right? Hm… what else. I met some stars at the set. I was really overwhelmed Oppa. If you only saw my face when i saw the banners….”

Kurt was listening intently, confused on the sudden shifts of topic… worried on the guy sitting next to him.

Geun Suk was just sitting there, his shoulders tensed. He heard her bits and pieces, but he saw her message loud and clear.

She’s scared. Her fear eating her whole.
She’s fading. She’s sinking…
She’s trying to reach out… waiting for him to save her.

His fierce little Princess.
He almost forgot she’s just a little girl.
He was almost tempted to pull her back and push them away.
But he gave her his words.
He’ll stand at the sideline and let her do her battle.

“Kurt Oppa, they’re already looking for me. Kamsa….”

“Take care, Shin Hye…”, and as Kurt was about to end the call, Geun Suk stopped his hand in mid air…. prolonging their connection.

And as if she sensed it, he saw her smile, and whispered, “I’m doing great, Oppa, right?”

Geun Suk nodded his head, and whispered, “Saranghae”

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