unspoken words of that stubborn soul…

1* First Loop

10 in the evening. A red Ferrari was parked in a not too far distance from Lotte World. The guy was seated at the driver’s seat, a cigarette in one hand, his iphone on the other.

“Eo disseo?”, he asked, as he heard her answering the phone.

“On the way, Oppa. We just wrapped up the filming for today. Mianhae”

“Who’s driving you here?”, he asked, a bit agitated.

“Are you mad?”, she asked back, worried.

“Aniya… who’s driving you here? Jun Hyung?”


“Park Shin Hye..”, he called his name, biting his inner cheek.

“Oppa.. a…”

“Oppa, what? Where are you? I’ll pick you up.”

“Almost there, Oppa. Five minutes.”

“Who’s driving you here?”, he asked again, somehow already had an idea how that girl would reach this place.

“Cab? Oppa! Jinja, gwaenchana.. jinja”, she said without pause, preventing him from starting his never ending tirade regarding her safety.

“I’ll meet you downstairs”, he answered coldly, then he hangs up.

“Aissh! Jinja”, Shin Hye whispered to herself as she stared at her phone.

With a cap on, a pair of denim pants and a camo winter jacket, Geun Suk walked near the entrance of Lotte World, avoiding the gaze of those bystanders. Hiding his self behind one of the pillars, he leaned his back against the post, a cigarette in one hand, he closed his eyes, trying really hard not to be mad at that girl who seemed to know every button to send him off from his sanity.

A minute or two has passed, while his eyes were still closed, he smiled upon feeling that presence.

Shin Hye stood there in front of that guy, crinkling her nose as she saw the cigarette butts surrounding that guy.

“Aisssh, jinja Oppa! How many sticks did you just finish?”, she said, stomping her feet.

That guy shook his head, scratched his forehead as he opened his eyes, looking at that girl.

“It’s too cold here. You should have just waited for me inside. I told you..” she still hasn’t finished her sentence when that guy pulled her to a tight embrace, her face buried to his chest.

“Aisssh! Cold. Jinja cold!”, he said, as he tightened his grip on her.

“I told you to wait inside, right?”, she said against his chest.

“Tch! I told you, I’ll pick you up, right? I told you not to take a cab, right? I told you…”

“Saranghae…”, she whispered, biting her lower lip.

“I… haven’t said Saranghae yet”, he paused, smiling at that kid’s attempt to run away from his wrath.

“Oppa, the show is about to start”, she said, pulling herself from him, somehow hurt that he didn’t answer her Saranghae. She knew she was at fault. She knew he would get mad. But she’s old enough to handle herself. She just couldn’t understand why things such as those would interfere to these few moments that they could spend together.

Shin Hye heaved a sigh as she walked away from him, her head bowed down, stopping those tears that are threatening to fall.

Geun Suk shook his head, his hands inside his pocket as he followed closely behind her.

That girl was wearing a black tights, paired with her oversize knitted sweater. She’s taking a liking on those knitted pieces that he himself bought for her.

He stopped as he saw her slowed down, staring at her phone, then a minute or two after, she placed it against her ears.

“Lotte World.. deh.. deh.. can you come? Ani.. ani.. gwaenchana. I might need a ride on the way home…”

Geun Suk’s eyes narrowed as he heard those words. He almost snatched the phone from her, when she ended the call abruptly, heaved a sigh then continued with her walk.

He hastened his stride, grabbing her by the arm, and asked, half-irritated, half-worried.
“What was that?”, he asked as he pointed at her phone.

“Phone call”, she answered absentmindedly.

“I know it’s a phone call. What was that?”, he asked, trying to control his voice.


“We have company?”

“I guess we have”

“Park Shin Hye”

“Oppa.. I’m tired. I think we both are. I don’t think we can afford another round of guessing games and hide and seek. It may not be a good idea to go out tonight. Mianhae. Let’s just go see the movie, and get over this”, she said, her voice retiring.

“Mworago?”, he asked, a bit disoriented.

“Joa will come. She will send me home after. That would both save us of your irritation and my stubbornness. I won’t be going home in a cab. And you can go and see Chocoballs after this movie. If you want, you may also leave me now. No worries. I have company.”

Geun Suk smiled at that twisted girl. He heaved a sigh, bowed his head as he pulled her again, trapping her in her arms.

Shin Hye just stood there, her hands on her side.

“Jinja.. gwaenchana.. I know you haven’t spent some time with them. We’ll just catch a movie again next time. Mianhae”

“Aissh, jinja. This is not any random movie that we can catch anytime we want. And, do you really think I would rather be in another place than here? ”

“I understand. I do”

“But I don’t. I don’t get it why you always try to understand these things, when I myself could not figure out what is there to understand”

“I don’t want to get mad at you”, she said softly.

Geun Suk let out a chuckle. “Park Shin Hye-ssi, I don’t know what I should do with you. You have this power to brush me off my feet. And do you think the attempt not to be mad by trying to understand everything which is not understandable at all makes me a bit happier?”


“I was tirelessly thinking of someone.. am tirelessly thinking of someone”

Remembering that Cri-J interview, she smiled then answered playfully, “is she that much for you Oppa? You were with her, yet you’re still tirelessly thinking of her”

Geun Suk smiled, knowing exactly the words that would come from her mouth. “yah,I was with her. But she seems too far at that time. I don’t know why, but she honestly thought that year would be our last”

“Eh?”, Shin Hye said, a bit appalled.

“Wae? Am I wrong? You almost shooed me away, pushing me too far, to something I haven’t even imagined”

“You haven’t even imagined? Aigoo! “

“Do you really think I wasn’t faithful?”

“You know you weren’t..”, she answered in a whisper.

Geun Suk stopped the bantering. He looked at her as if he was offended.. hurt.

“I didn’t know…”, he said, starting to feel the uneasiness again.

Shin Hye looked at him, then smiled weakly. “Gwaenchana, Oppa. It’s all in the past”, she answered, trying to brush the topic away.

Geun Suk held her arm before she even took a step away.

“Shin Hye… “

“Gwaenchana, Oppa…”

“It’s not. I didn’t know you’re hurt this deep”

“You know I am”, she said weakly.

“You were pushing me away”


“You are pushing me away”

It was then her turn to be disoriented. “Oppa…”

Geun Suk looked at her and forced a smiled. “Mianhae.. I was.. I am..mianhae”

Shin Hye, with teary eyed, ran back at him, and wrapped her arms around his waist.”Mianhae,Oppa. Mianhae… I didn’t mean to…”

“How are the flower boys?”, he said, changing the topic instantly.

Shin Hye looked at him, confused of the sudden change of course.

“Fine.. they’re doing good”, she answered, a bit careful of her words.

“How’s the honeymoon?”, he said, with a twinkle in his eyes.

“Honeymoon? There was no honey..”, she slowed down as she remembered her tweet. “yah!”, she hissed pinching him at the torso.

“Yah!”, he hissed back, smiling. “Honeymoon at Chuncheon. Tch! And you have this habit of dropping down bombs while I am not able to put up a fight”

“But you fought back. Enjoying long drive, hm?”

“That’s the least I can do, Little Missy. The girlfriend is working on the eve and on Christmas itself. The other camps will be rejoicing again when they realize that the girl could have been single, with no one to make her warm on the eve of that White Christmas”

“Yah!”, she said, her face flushed.

“Wae? I did make you warm, didn’t i? It was supposed to be a “honeymoon”, right? Unless it was the flower boy who did make you warm. Tch!”

“Aissh! Jinja!”

“I was just playing when I posted that one”

“tch! And the playmate could not play with you. One, he was away. Two, you’re not following him back”

“But Alicehanaz do”

“Hal. Alicehanaz is a bit quiet”

“Oppa, you know everything that is happening to me. Some, you even know before I do. Tch! And regarding the following back, I am following you now”

“Tch! If I didn’t even have the courage to follow me back….”

To follow me back.. nice words…”

“Ha ha ha. You’re exchanging a good number of tweets to Jin Rak. Do you think I will just sit back?”

“But I am still not tweeting with you”, she said, trying to piss him off.

“Do you want me to start a convo now in twitterland”

“I will not answer back”

“You know you will”

“I will not”

“I can make you answer back. You know I can. Should I post a photo of our honeymoon in your twitter or, my account”

“Yah! Andwae! Jang Geun Suk-ssi, you are in no way allowed to touch my public accounts without my permission. Aisssh! I thought my account was hacked.”

“Haha., I did inform you”, he grinned at her.

“After your hangover was done. And after the Stars and Steels have made an update re: ssinz following back the AsiaPrince”

“But you were as swift as lightning in the comeback. You followed him back…”

“Nu gu?”, she asked, confused.

“I definitely did not follow him back. I definitely did not press follow, even if am not sober enough”

Shin Hye smiled, shaking her head at the childishness. “I followed Hong Star. And evidently, afterwards, I “followed” my Hyung-nim. It won’t be a good idea not follow him back. And besides, it’s not his. It’s theirs. Childish, jinja, Oppa.”

“Me, childish? Tch! And you on her?”

“Hal. That’s no comparison.”

“Yeah, right. That should not be compared. Her is only last year, which was never ever mentioned in any interviews, except for those crazy ones who keep on uploading BTS which was almost a year ago. And him was when.. three years ago, and what.. my name almost dropped from the topic of dating, making my girl being denied for the first time in public”

“He was just stating a fact”

“Ah, guirae. He was just stating a fact. And you saying that I am just an older brother is clearly a denial”


“I never denied you. Not even once”

“But you said you don’t have a girlfriend”

“But I never said any word of denial when the name Park Shin Hye is mentioned. It would cost me my fame, but I never, will never deny you”

Shin Hye looked down and pouted. When she tried to trace back all interviews, he’s right. He never did deny her.. never said anything about him dating her.

“Ha ha.. I am good, right? I am the Asia Prince but I never denied you. And I never said anything against Minami.. that is always on top of my list”

“That made you who you are now”, she said, then her eyes widened, realizing what she just has said.

“tch! I’m listening”, he said, his eyes squinted.

Shin Hye bit her lips. She needs to come out clean on this. Geun Suk definitely didn’t like those words. “Oppa, I’m just stating the fact. Minami really made who you are now. It definitely need to be on the top of your list. Hwang Tae Kyung made you…”

“How about, Go Mi Nam made me? How about, I, working with Park Shin Hye, and somehow, somewhere along that Minami, that stubborn little girl finally opened up and somehow accepted her Oppa. I had my chance in Minami. You gave me my chance.”

“Aissh! Jinja…”

“It’s you. It’s always been you”

Shin Hye pulled away, then grinned to herself.

“Why?” he said, half-grinning as well.

“We look crazy, Oppa.”

“We are”

“Ha ha ha. One time, we’ll be fighting. The next we’re trying to say words we both figured out one will be saying anyway. Then, we’ll try to convince that everything is ok. Then, we’ll argue again, pulling out all those skeletons in our closet..”

Geun Suk put a finger on her lips. “They were not skeletons in our closet. We never hid them. It’s just quite amazing.. frustrating, that they both still have a grip on us”

“Funny.. scary…”

“Disappointing, but fun. Ee keep on mentioning them, when we don’t even have enough time to talk about us”

Shin Hye looked at him, realizing the very word that she was thinking about earlier.

And then, as if reading her mind, he smiled, then pulled her again to a tight embrace. “Saranghae.. I think I said I haven’t said it YET… but you walked away. Mianhae, I let you walked away”

“But you were just behind me”

“Tch! As if I would really allow you to set that distance from me.”

“Nado, saranghae Oppa”

They were savoring that moment, when out of the blue they heard that voice which set them off their trance.

“Oops. I didn’t know I was intruding something. No one informed me that I am a third wheel. Am I still needed here?”, Joa asked, playing with those two.

“As always, you and you’re sharp tongue little missy”

“And if you were not the guy that I know of, I swear big man, I will snatch my friend away from you”

“And give her to the guy in your “ friend’s” company?”

“You do know me well”

“And I do know that you love this girl much to know who loves her the most”

Joa, smiled, gave Geun Suk a salute, then said, as they tried to go inside the theatre, “So does that mean, I’m not playing a chauffer tonight?”

Geun Suk shook his head, wrapped her arms possessively on that girl then said, “unless you want blood on the steps of your car”

“Jang Geun Suk-ssi, you’re sometimes scary, you do know that, right?”

“But you’re not scared of me”, he said grinning.

“And you have this subtle way of flirting with other girls. You don’t know it. It just comes out naturally.”

“Are you affected?”, he asked, with that boyish smile of his.

“Jinja. Aisssh! Shin Hye-ssi, I’ll go in first”, she said, stomping her feet.

Shin Hye and Geun Suk were laughing, when Shin Hye slapped him on the chest. “You always make fun of her”

“And she really likes me”

“Ha ha ha. I think she does.”

As they entered the dark stairs toward the moviehouse, Geun Suk tugged her hand, Shin Hye looked back with squinted eyes.

“You know clearly that I cannot see in the dark, Go Mi Nam”

“Hyung-nim, should I lead you inside?”, she said smiling.

“Unless you want me to stumble down”, he said as he gave that signature pout.

“My prickly Hyung-nim. I should have just stayed in my room, when you called out that night. Maybe, by now..”

“I’ll definitely make another call, a thousand.. a million calls.. until that stubborn soul follow the script. You cannot avoid me, Princes. You know you can’t”



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